My SN is in the way and it’s passed customs

[myra]

I gave up on SaSu to help me with my CTB bc I'm old and didn't know any of the abbreviations, there were no options for me because SN is the only option and living in *** means you virtually can't get SN anymore.

I was able to find it in another country that sells it packaged from a chemical manufacturer. I probably bought one of the last because it's sold out now. 98% 100grams

I'm thinking that it's meant to be since I was able to find it and it passed customs.

I have the antiemetic, propranalol and the benzo.

Should I share my experience when I'm going through it? I'll want to do something while I'm waiting to pass out.

I can't believe I'm getting it. I just need a weigh scale to measure 25grams now

 

[Serena 2026]

I gave up on SaSu to help me with my CTB bc I'm old and didn't know any of the abbreviations, there were no options for me because SN was as the only option and living in *** means you virtually can't get SN anymore.

I was able to find it in another country that sells it packaged from a chemical manufacturer. I probably bought one of the last because it's sold out now.

I'm thinking that it's meant to be and my CBT is probably 17,18 of July.

I have the antiemetic, propranalol and the benzo.

Should I share my experience when I'm going through it? I'll want to do something while I'm waiting to pass out
I can't believe I'm getting. I'm guessing that it's meant to be. I need to buy a weight scale now to measure out 25g

I felt just like you when I first joined SaSu; I'm over 60, and all the acronyms were confusing. But I found comfort here—nice people who helped me better understand the methods. I got my questions answered and managed to buy N in Peru. I plan to play some good music while I wait for the effects to kick in; you could do that too—I think it helps soothe anxiety and fear... I hope your journey is smooth and that you find peace!!

 

[myra]

I felt just like you when I first joined SaSu; I'm over 60, and all the acronyms were confusing. But I found comfort here—nice people who helped me better understand the methods. I got my questions answered and managed to buy N in Peru. I plan to play some good music while I wait for the effects to kick in; you could do that too—I think it helps soothe anxiety and fear... I hope your journey is smooth and that you find peace!!

You were able to source N! I don't know anything about it. Is it a pill? I wish I was able to source that!

 

[Serena 2026]

You were able to source N! I don't know anything about it. Is it a pill? I wish I was able to source that!

Yes, after a lot of research, I found it in Peru and flew there to get it. The "N" is a liquid veterinary anesthetic (they say the taste isn't pleasant), so I'm going to try applying an anesthetic to my tongue... The bottle holds 50 ml, and 200 ml is needed for the CTB, so I bought four. They say it's the best method for dying—pain-free—so I hope that's true!!

 

[myra]

So nice that you were able to fly to Peru. Not too many can do that.

 

[da5ae5ae]

Yes, after a lot of research, I found it in Peru and flew there to get it. The "N" is a liquid veterinary anesthetic (they say the taste isn't pleasant), so I'm going to try applying an anesthetic to my tongue... The bottle holds 50 ml, and 200 ml is needed for the CTB, so I bought four. They say it's the best method for dying—pain-free—so I hope that's true!!

Wow! That's so amazing ! You are pretty hard core for going to Peru!

 

[fadedghost]

I gave up on SaSu to help me with my CTB bc I'm old and didn't know any of the abbreviations, there were no options for me because SN is the only option and living in *** means you virtually can't get SN anymore.

I was able to find it in another country that sells it packaged from a chemical manufacturer. I probably bought one of the last because it's sold out now. 98% 100grams

I'm thinking that it's meant to be since I was able to find it and it passed customs.

I have the antiemetic, propranalol and the benzo.

Should I share my experience when I'm going through it? I'll want to do something while I'm waiting to pass out.

I can't believe I'm getting it. I just need a weigh scale to measure 25grams now

i'm sorry you're here, but am also pro-choice and glad you have an option

you may feel relief after you have your option and kit and maybe you won't feel the need to do it...

i'm sorry things have been difficult for you. i got my SN and felt relief and suddenly felt like, okay, I can just mellow out and use it at some point... there's no rush anymore...

and maybe I'll never use it, I don't know... it's hard to know how you will feel until you have it probably

 

[thekop85]

So you managed to get some SN. Congratulations.
I'm having a really hard time even getting SN.
Was there a supplier that offered SN in small quantities, like 100g?
You're really lucky.
Congratulations on successfully completing all your preparations.
I hope your CTB journey goes smoothly.

 

[Serena 2026]

Wow! That's so amazing ! You are pretty hard core for going to Peru!

We suicidal people tend to have courage, don't you agree? Killing oneself is for the strong!!

 

[thekop85]

That's true.
I agree.
In particular, I really respect you for going all the way to Peru to win N.

 

[Serena 2026]

That's true.
I agree.
In particular, I really respect you for going all the way to Peru to win N.

Oh, thanks... I was afraid of getting caught, but I went for it!

 

[da5ae5ae]

Oh, thanks... I was afraid of getting caught, but I went for it!

Honestly I admire you! I'm out here, sat in my dark room behind my screens freaking out about potentially dodgy transactions and evasive messaging on WhatsApp, yet here you are, setting out on what was likely an extremely effort full massive trek, in person mind you, to obtain what you need. I can't even imagine.

 

[Serena 2026]

Honestly I admire you! I'm out here, sat in my dark room behind my screens freaking out about potentially dodgy transactions and evasive messaging on WhatsApp, yet here you are, setting out on what was likely an extremely effort full massive trek, in person mind you, to obtain what you need. I can't even imagine.

I had actually already visited Peru for tourism back in 2017—it's a country where you have to be careful when traveling alone, of course—but my main fear was getting caught at the airport bringing the "N" back; however, it went really smoothly. The product itself isn't expensive; it's the airfare, hotel, taxi, and food costs that are high... but it's worth the investment!

 

[da5ae5ae]

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I had actually already visited Peru for tourism back in 2017—it's a country where you have to be careful when traveling alone, of course—but my main fear was getting caught at the airport bringing the "N" back; however, it went really smoothly. The product itself isn't expensive; it's the airfare, hotel, taxi, and food costs that are high... but it's worth the investment!

I'm just imagining this in a YouTube style travel vlog "travelling to Peru for N" LOL. Everything in the vlog is very casual, going to local markets and reporting on local delights, under cover footage obtaining the N. Sounds like a great story !

I had actually already visited Peru for tourism back in 2017—it's a country where you have to be careful when traveling alone, of course—but my main fear was getting caught at the airport bringing the "N" back; however, it went really smoothly. The product itself isn't expensive; it's the airfare, hotel, taxi, and food costs that are high... but it's worth the investment!

Ps I would have been freaking TF out going through customs/the airport. *gets heart attack and dies trying to obtain substance to die*

I gave up on SaSu to help me with my CTB bc I'm old and didn't know any of the abbreviations, there were no options for me because SN is the only option and living in *** means you virtually can't get SN anymore.

I was able to find it in another country that sells it packaged from a chemical manufacturer. I probably bought one of the last because it's sold out now. 98% 100grams

I'm thinking that it's meant to be since I was able to find it and it passed customs.

I have the antiemetic, propranalol and the benzo.

Should I share my experience when I'm going through it? I'll want to do something while I'm waiting to pass out.

I can't believe I'm getting it. I just need a weigh scale to measure 25grams now

Hey sorry I completely ignored your key question. Yes share you're experience if it will make you feel less alone mate