Venting My pets

[Coconut]

I wanna die, but I love my pets. Last year I was going to hang myself, but my dog was staring at me, and I couldn't kill myself. Oh, God. Her eyes. I couldn't possibly leave her. I told myself that I'd kill myself after my pets die but suicidal thoughts came back. I'm so sad thinking about not being able to see them after I die. I cry over it. This is painful.

 

[FuneralCry]

That does sound like a painful situation to be in and it must be hard to deal with. I think that having pets is a common reason for holding people back from going through with suicide, and I get that it's awful when you wish to be gone, yet feel so trapped here in this world.

 

[jodes2]

I'm so sorry. Pets do hold a special place in our hearts

 

[WaitingToGo]

Leaving my cats to fend for themselves was not an option. I've arranged with my cat sitters that "if and when anything happens to me" that they would adopt them. I love them too much so understand where you are coming from.

 

[vultureilse]

can relate. i love my cat and feel so guilty about having to leave him

when i wake up as soon as he notices im awake he immediately runs up to me to cuddle and the thought of him seeing me never wake up again just makes me want to cry

 

[Al Gul]

My pets are a massive reason why I've decided to keep going. I don't know what would happen to them, and having raised them, I can't imagine not being around for them. It's tough. Many days, they're why I even get out of bed. And I get you, they have many years left. It's a really difficult thing.

 

[downndone2]

I am here because of my pets and grown kids. But my pets count on me to eat and drink daily.

I've never attempted but can only imagine..

My plan is either to do it away from home or OD. I have anxiety over the what ifs. ill either have dog sitter come by and/or sched message to go out.

I know my dogs are miserable laying around this house with me in this anxious and depressed hell. I also know someone who loves and knows them will take them in. It is so hard but for me, it will be better for us all

 

[HadItAll]

That does sound like a painful situation to be in and it must be hard to deal with. I think that having pets is a common reason for holding people back from going through with suicide, and I get that it's awful when you wish to be gone, yet feel so trapped here in this world.

This is why I'm terrified of sex ever since the onset of my autoimmune symptoms. Imagine you accidentally cause a pregnancy: you just can't ctb for at least the next 20 years + constantly being worried that your child might have the genetically inherited autoimmune conditions triggered at any point in his/her life. Absolutely terrifying.

 

[Obliviate]

The way I look at it is this, here in the physical world I am useless to them as we know medical bills are EXPENSIVE for them. I'm poor and lack privilege and we all know money and privilege is EVERYTHING. Atleast in the spiritual realm I'll have some power/be able to look out for them/protect them. I CANNOT see them sick and die my heart wont be able to take it so I HAVE to leave before them. Then they can just join me when they pass. I'm also sacrificing myself so that the expenses that would be spent on me can be used for them instead.

 

[hrsprayqn]

Genuinely think getting a pet would stop me wanting to ctb, they're too pure

 

[stilhavinightmares]

Genuinely think getting a pet would stop me wanting to ctb, they're too pure

Can confirm. My dog is the only reason I'm still alive.

 

[Coconut]

That does sound like a painful situation to be in and it must be hard to deal with. I think that having pets is a common reason for holding people back from going through with suicide, and I get that it's awful when you wish to be gone, yet feel so trapped here in this world.

Thank you so much for understanding. I just feel stuck, I don't know what to do.

I'm so sorry. Pets do hold a special place in our hearts

Yes, I can't explain it in words how much I love them. Precious creatures.

Leaving my cats to fend for themselves was not an option. I've arranged with my cat sitters that "if and when anything happens to me" that they would adopt them. I love them too much so understand where you are coming from.

I'm leaving my pets to my mom. Since she's a sweet person, I know she'll take good care of them but it's still sad to think about. They'll miss me, right? :(

can relate. i love my cat and feel so guilty about having to leave him

when i wake up as soon as he notices im awake he immediately runs up to me to cuddle and the thought of him seeing me never wake up again just makes me want to cry

I'm sorry you can relate. That's so heartbreaking. I feel guilty, too. My dog is so happy to see me when I wake up.

My pets are a massive reason why I've decided to keep going. I don't know what would happen to them, and having raised them, I can't imagine not being around for them. It's tough. Many days, they're why I even get out of bed. And I get you, they have many years left. It's a really difficult thing.

I feel you. They make me get out of bed and get outdoors. And yeah, my dog is 4 and my hedgehog is only 1.

My plan is either to do it away from home or OD. I have anxiety over the what ifs. ill either have dog sitter come by and/or sched message to go out.

I know my dogs are miserable laying around this house with me in this anxious and depressed hell. I also know someone who loves and knows them will take them in. It is so hard but for me, it will be better for us all

That was so sad to read. Sending you lots of hugs. Leaving my pets is the hardest thing I'll ever have to do.

The way I look at it is this, here in the physical world I am useless to them as we know medical bills are EXPENSIVE for them. I'm poor and lack privilege and we all know money and privilege is EVERYTHING. Atleast in the spiritual realm I'll have some power/be able to look out for them/protect them. I CANNOT see them sick and die my heart wont be able to take it so I HAVE to leave before them. Then they can just join me when they pass. I'm also sacrificing myself so that the expenses that would be spent on me can be used for them instead.

That's a perspective I've never considered looking from. I can see that you're a kind soul, you'll be their guardian angel.

 

[nosoul]

I wanna die, but I love my pets. Last year I was going to hang myself, but my dog was staring at me, and I couldn't kill myself. Oh, God. Her eyes. I couldn't possibly leave her. I told myself that I'd kill myself after my pets die but suicidal thoughts came back. I'm so sad thinking about not being able to see them after I die. I cry over it. This is painful.

This is my predicament, but I can barely take care of them, I just want to sleep and never awake

I am here because of my pets and grown kids. But my pets count on me to eat and drink daily.

I've never attempted but can only imagine..

My plan is either to do it away from home or OD. I have anxiety over the what ifs. ill either have dog sitter come by and/or sched message to go out.

I know my dogs are miserable laying around this house with me in this anxious and depressed hell. I also know someone who loves and knows them will take them in. It is so hard but for me, it will be better for us all

This 100%, but sadly I'm so isolated, Noone will take then in for me

The way I look at it is this, here in the physical world I am useless to them as we know medical bills are EXPENSIVE for them. I'm poor and lack privilege and we all know money and privilege is EVERYTHING. Atleast in the spiritual realm I'll have some power/be able to look out for them/protect them. I CANNOT see them sick and die my heart wont be able to take it so I HAVE to leave before them. Then they can just join me when they pass. I'm also sacrificing myself so that the expenses that would be spent on me can be used for them instead.

I'm in the same boat, I can leave some cash out for them, but then some scumbag will prob take the money and ditch them, not respect my dead wishes. It would be amazing to see them in the afterlife, even to look after them, I'm in terrible anguish, mentally suffering, I hope you can find peace soon.

 

[Deleted member 31858]

I'm in the same situation :(