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Cucumberman
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- Apr 2, 2023
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I am passively suicidal eversince my teenage years. I'm currently 24 now, and am usually capable of coping with my thoughts now. Until recently, my parents mention from time to time that they wanted to die.. jokingly. I don't know what to do or tell them.. I just feel frustrated when I hear them when I actually should sympathize with them since we're going thorough the same thing?.. Btw I'm still living with them, we're in an Asian household.. It hurts everytime they joke about it because I really know their words are half-meant.. We love each other but I think everyone is really tired now.. I don't want to die yet but hearing them makes my thoughts to ctb worsen..
I also think that they may be the reason that I'm like this now?.. I have witnessed how my mom attempted to end herself when I was 10. I'm scared, frustrated.. I pity them.. I wanted to help but I don't know how since I'm like this too... Sorry for the long venting..
I also think that they may be the reason that I'm like this now?.. I have witnessed how my mom attempted to end herself when I was 10. I'm scared, frustrated.. I pity them.. I wanted to help but I don't know how since I'm like this too... Sorry for the long venting..