lainsitooo
Member
- Mar 8, 2026
- 22
I feel that my pain is not enough.
It's been like this since always, I've seen people do more extreme things and this just makes me think that I should try be more ill and mentally worse, even if that costs my life.
I always observe how people cut deeper, how people accomplish their suicide and I just feel like a stupid person for not being capable of some things.
I have the urge to feel worse, even if it's a hard process, since I am a kid I felt this way, to get worse or do stuff that puts myself in risk just to people to notice or just to have the recognition of a mentally unstable person, that sounds weird asf.
It's been like this since always, I've seen people do more extreme things and this just makes me think that I should try be more ill and mentally worse, even if that costs my life.
I always observe how people cut deeper, how people accomplish their suicide and I just feel like a stupid person for not being capable of some things.
I have the urge to feel worse, even if it's a hard process, since I am a kid I felt this way, to get worse or do stuff that puts myself in risk just to people to notice or just to have the recognition of a mentally unstable person, that sounds weird asf.
