Venting My nail in the coffin came today.

[SomedayorNexttime]

My mother lectured me today. She does this sometimes, and today she said something the solidified my will to die. Hearing her anger and disappointment kills me.

I don't know why, but the things she says affects me the most. I wish she had a better child than me. I'm tired of blaming myself and holing up in my room. I'm tired of blaming, period. She's completely right.

I hope I can find a way to CTB this year.

 

[Abyss Dweller]

I don't know how old you are but this sounds exactly like me and my dad when I was in school (elementary and then HS). Also a bit of college mixed in.

I know it's hard but whatever she is saying is not you and doesn't define you. You are a person who is loveable even if you don't feel like coming out of your room for a day or for a week or whatever.