Venting My mom asked me what I want for Christmas

[ultrasharpy123456]

I told her that I really couldn't tell her. Then she asked if I wanted money. I asked for $400.00. Can you believe that all I need to ctb is $400.00? That's enough for an uber and a hotel room.

What do I want for Christmas.... I can't belive this kind of society exists. It's amazing. It shouldn't be this hard to die.

 

[Lost Magic]

Do you really want to leave your beloved mom behind at Christmas? I would do anything to still have my mother with me right now. She was my rock. Christmas is just not the same without her. I know it is your life and do as you please and I don't know your story. Maybe, I am just being introspective right now thinking about my own mother. Anyway, I wish you peace. Do what is right for you.

 

[ultrasharpy123456]

Do you really want to leave your beloved mom behind at Christmas? I would do anything to still have my mother with me right now. She was my rock. Christmas is just not the same without her. I know it is your life and do as you please and I don't know your story. Maybe, I am just being introspective right now thinking about my own mother. Anyway, I wish you peace. Do what is right for you.

I would do anything to ingest my SN in peace. I feel like I'm trapped on this planet and I just want to leave.

 

[hopeless302]

I pray to God I'm dead by the time Christmas rolls around.

 

[Death is my goal]

wouldn't ever ctb with money i got from my mom

 

[Life_and_Death]

wouldn't ever ctb with money i got from my mom

my mother should be funding my death lol

I would do anything to ingest my SN in peace. I feel like I'm trapped on this planet and I just want to leave.

i dont 100% disagree with @jodes2, i at least question waiting only/at least a week or 2. not very long but just long enough to put distance between it. plus if you have the money who said you had to spend it right now? as long as its there youll have your cab/room

 

[ultrasharpy123456]

wouldn't ever ctb with money i got from my mom

I'm passed the point of pride and morals tbh. I just wanna make sure I can get out of here when I can.

 

[Death is my goal]

I'm passed the point of pride and morals tbh. I just wanna make sure I can get out of here when I can.

do it on your then, not with your mom's money just to make her feel guilty.

 

[Pluto]

You have a right to make your own choice. You are an adult and nobody can tell you what to do.

Obviously, a lot has happened leading up to this point. If you are open to sharing a bit more about what you're going through, there might be other ways of proceeding that won't cause so much hurt to loved ones.

 

[ultrasharpy123456]

do it on your then, not with your mom's money just to make her feel guilty.

I'll do whether I have my own money or not. Again, I'm passed all this pride. I need to die. I'm living for me now.

 

[Lost Magic]

I'll do whether I have my own money or not. Again, I'm passed all this pride. I need to die. I'm living for me now.

Your mother is going to go through so much pain this Christmas, especially after giving you money for a gift to end your life. I can't cut it any other way with you. It's obviously your life and decision, but you will have to prepare for the pain you will leave behind. Do you have a note written or anything?

 

[ultrasharpy123456]

Your mother is going to go through so much pain this Christmas, especially after giving you money for a gift to end your life. I can't cut it any other way with you. It's obviously your life and decision, but you will have to prepare for the pain you will leave behind. Do you have a note written or anything?

Yeah I've written notes and they all know my intentions. I'd have to write another note for them. It's not like I would do it right away but at least I'd have a way out of here.

 

[Lost Magic]

Yeah I've written notes and they all know my intentions. I'd have to write another note for them. It's not like I would do it right away but at least I'd have a way out of here.

okay, well best wishes in whatever you choose to do.

 

[FuneralCry]

Death and loss are simply an inevitable part of this life. After all we will all die anyway and lose everything eventually. Your feelings of wanting to be free from this life are understandable, nobody should feel as though they have to suffer for the sake of others unless that is what they wish to do. It certainly can be so tiring and dreadful feeling trapped in a life that you hate, I always really envy those who pass away and don't have to experience this life anymore. I hope that you find the freedom that you wish for.

 

[Lonerzepam]

Hopefully you don't get any gift cards instead of cash that would be upsetting haha

 

[ultrasharpy123456]

Hopefully you don't get any gift cards instead of cash that would be upsetting haha

Well I could do it inside the apartment while everyone is asleep. It's not like I would do it so quickly.

 

[Lonerzepam]

Well I could do it inside the apartment while everyone is asleep. It's not like I would do it so quickly.

But do you actually plan on doing it exactly on Christmas day?

 

[ultrasharpy123456]

But do you actually plan on doing it exactly on Christmas day?

no much later.

 

[counting-out-time]

I'd ask My mom for n but she would probably think it's Nutella. But if if was Nutella mixed with proper n then I wouldn't complain