Sylveon
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- Oct 10, 2023
- 490
I don't know where to begin this; I don't wanna break my mum's heart; I know she wouldn't be able to handle it if I were gone; heck, she even teared up when I talked to her about moving out yesterday. Really, I should've no buisness being here, yet here I'm wallowing in my misrey, cutting myself, trying to lose weight, forcing myself to hate my peers just to get my stuff done, and trying to bail out of this life that I'm not interested in the slightest in a world I so really hate.
I really don't understand why my brain works the way it does. I guess being on the internet since the young age of 7 irreversibly fucked up my brain if I wasn't already wired that way...
I wish I was anyone but me. My mum deserves a way better child—someone who isn't so screwed up in their head and someone who can actually make her proud. I really don't deserve all this love that I get. Oh, how I wish that imaginary button was real...
I really don't understand why my brain works the way it does. I guess being on the internet since the young age of 7 irreversibly fucked up my brain if I wasn't already wired that way...
I wish I was anyone but me. My mum deserves a way better child—someone who isn't so screwed up in their head and someone who can actually make her proud. I really don't deserve all this love that I get. Oh, how I wish that imaginary button was real...
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