My life sucks

[SomedayorNexttime]

I hate having no money. I hate being a weight on my family. I hate having no friends. I hate being crazy. I hate not being able to do anything. I hate accomplishing nothing.

I am an absolute failure and I don't know what else to do with myself. I truly believe I should be hated to the core and I truly believe I have no purpose here.

I hate not having any ways to CTB. I tried partial hanging but it didn't work, I just got a headache. I just did it with clothes because I don't have a rope, maybe that's why.

I feel like I am speaking into a void all of the time. I'm only 20 so I'm just waiting until I'm able to drink so I can start forgetting things and finally be addicted to something. Maybe I could pass away with alcohol poisoning?

I wish I had a job but everyone is rejecting me. I got rejected the other day for the millionth time.

I will confess that I originally wanted to CTB four years from now in hopes things would be better after college. But they won't be.

Why can't there just be a pill I can take or something that lets me pass away quietly? Why do I have to continue being a loser? :/

 

[unluckysadness]

sorry to hear that you must struggle with all these things. i understand you 100%. here's a good place to talk about our struggles

 

[eupdplishlp]

I'm terribly sorry for the pain and suffering you've had to endure, there are many mega threads on here with useful information. I hope you find the peace your looking for in what you choose. my pm is always open for a chat