My life just doesn’t work.

[gny]

In my life nothing works. It never did. Life seemed so easy for everyone else. School worked. After that jobs and everything a "normal" person does it all worked for everyone. I stayed stuck in place.

Now I'm at the point where I can not do this anymore. I'm 34 years old and a complete loser. I've lost everything ( at least the little I had ) now I'm just surviving and completely miserable.

My family tells me things will get better something will work. It hasn't in all these years it's foolish to think it will now. I need to go I can't stay here watching everyone else succeed in life and me sitting here just living miserable. What is the fastest and lease painful way to ctb. I would like to go soon. I can't take this any longer.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that things are so hopeless. I know that this life can be unbearable when you are suffering so much. Ctb really is so difficult and I think that if I knew the fastest way to ctb I would already be gone. I wish there was a way to fall asleep and never wake without having to go through the ctb process.

All that someone can do is look at the resources, that is what I plan to do, research my chosen method to reduce the chance of failure. This life really is so depressing and awful and I wish you the best in whatever happens. I hope you find relief from your suffering.

 

[CommitSudoku]

If you look at the pinned threads you'll find a resource compilation. Your circumstances can really determine what is possible for you and which you feel works best so I hope you're able to go through the options and think over what you feel is best for yourself.

It can really be painful to live, especially feeling that we are being left behind. I can't take this feeling especially when I have been left behind. I'm sorry you have to deal with this. It's hard feeling stuck or even like we're regressing while others move forward, attaining what we cannot. Best wishes whatever you decide to do.

 

[NoWayOut22]

Im 35 and my life has got worse every year since my teens. When people say life gets better theyre full of shit. Wished all my suicide/drug attempts actually worked in my teens, I knew my life would be shit and low and behold, here i am at 35 and i was right all those years ago.

 

[Judy Garland]

In my life nothing works. It never did. Life seemed so easy for everyone else. School worked. After that jobs and everything a "normal" person does it all worked for everyone. I stayed stuck in place.

Now I'm at the point where I can not do this anymore. I'm 34 years old and a complete loser. I've lost everything ( at least the little I had ) now I'm just surviving and completely miserable.

My family tells me things will get better something will work. It hasn't in all these years it's foolish to think it will now. I need to go I can't stay here watching everyone else succeed in life and me sitting here just living miserable. What is the fastest and lease painful way to ctb. I would like to go soon. I can't take this any longer.

Same situation with me. Only I'm almost 38.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Life has never gotten any better for me, either, and I'm 56, so I think I gave it plenty of fucking time. Family are good for a bunch of platitudes that just keep you hanging in there a while more. whatever you decide to do, I wish you the best and hope that peace and solace find you.

 

[Spiritual survivor]

You are still pretty young. The reason your life doesn't work is because society trains us into believing we are our own sufficiency. The truth is that we were supposed to rely on God for our sufficiency. It takes time to get used to listening or being able to hear God. I'm still struggling with believing that God will provide the things I need and I feel strange about asking God to do things for me. I still feel unsure but so far I have experienced God do things for me. Like total surprise things because I asked for it. God had created us because he wanted a family, and to be loved and worshipped. So the more u show him u need him and love him, the more he will magically do things for u. If u do some of the things he asked for us to do in the Bible he starts to return the favor.

 

[jimmy7754]

You are still pretty young. The reason your life doesn't work is because society trains us into believing we are our own sufficiency. The truth is that we were supposed to rely on God for our sufficiency. It takes time to get used to listening or being able to hear God. I'm still struggling with believing that God will provide the things I need and I feel strange about asking God to do things for me. I still feel unsure but so far I have experienced God do things for me. Like total surprise things because I asked for it. God had created us because he wanted a family, and to be loved and worshipped. So the more u show him u need him and love him, the more he will magically do things for u. If u do some of the things he asked for us to do in the Bible he starts to return the favor.

This is insane..

 

[Spiritual survivor]

This is insane..

 

[gny]

You are still pretty young. The reason your life doesn't work is because society trains us into believing we are our own sufficiency. The truth is that we were supposed to rely on God for our sufficiency. It takes time to get used to listening or being able to hear God. I'm still struggling with believing that God will provide the things I need and I feel strange about asking God to do things for me. I still feel unsure but so far I have experienced God do things for me. Like total surprise things because I asked for it. God had created us because he wanted a family, and to be loved and worshipped. So the more u show him u need him and love him, the more he will magically do things for u. If u do some of the things he asked for us to do in the Bible he starts to return the favor.

I have done good things and bad in life. I've not gotten anything to go my way. Not one time did anything go my way. Every step of the way I watched things I tried work for others. Now I just sit and waste away and watch everyone around me have better and better things in their lives and me just sit here getting worse. I don't know when my turn will come for something good to happen but I don't have that time left. It's not even the sadness any more I'm so filled with hate that I don't even want to wait and see. Although I've been waiting since my teens for even one single shred of normalcy or good to come and it never did.

 

[sandalphon]

You are still pretty young. The reason your life doesn't work is because society trains us into believing we are our own sufficiency. The truth is that we were supposed to rely on God for our sufficiency. It takes time to get used to listening or being able to hear God. I'm still struggling with believing that God will provide the things I need and I feel strange about asking God to do things for me. I still feel unsure but so far I have experienced God do things for me. Like total surprise things because I asked for it. God had created us because he wanted a family, and to be loved and worshipped. So the more u show him u need him and love him, the more he will magically do things for u. If u do some of the things he asked for us to do in the Bible he starts to return the favor.

Don't proselytize here.

 

[SoulSearchingMan65]

I'll be turning 34 in a couple of months, so I think I can relate to what you're going through. I always wonder why I couldn't just do what everyone else around me was doing. People tell you to hang in there or it'll get better, among other things. But all it is just words. It really feels like an incompatibility issue with this world.

It's so needlessly cruel to keep people suffering in an environment never meant for them.

 

[Al Cappella]

For once can people stop with the god bullshit? If it works for you, wonderful, have at 'er. But to be so fucking crass and basic as to tell someone their life isn't working because they can't hear some made-up deity is beyond fucked up.

There is no capital T truth, period. Sometimes we find we can live with shit, other times we can't. It doesn't get better, unless you can convince yourself to believe something is better. It is possible to do that for some. I haven't managed it.

 

[TheCrowCalls]

I always consider third world countries and developing countries that live difficult lives with little comfort (compared to the immediacy of the first world) and It seems to come down to brain chemistry which maintains a level of content within these communities. Obviously poverty and homelessness can lead to suicide. But once some base needs are met that's when personality and genetics begin playing a role.

I think In life there are winners and there are losers in all factors and most of us here have gotten the short end of the stick. This leaves us feeling trapped. And because life is actually more of a dog eat dog world that most like to admit to, people like us are pushed to the sidelines with a "we put a bandaid on it now go run the ultramarathon". This happens because they don't want to be dragged down to the reality of suffering on a regular basis.

We all die in the end, and we all presumably will not remember our lives. Death is the great equalizer

 

[gny]

I think I'm going to ctb tonight. I'm not 100% and I really hope I'm able to go through with it. I said my good byes in a way. I don't want people to know what's going on so I didn't actually say good buy but people know how I feel. I'm ready. I think it's time now. Today was the final kick in the teeth and I just can't do it. I'm tired and I'm ready. I hope I can do it. Going to try now. Have a good idea to go.

 

[Foresight]

Well wishes op, I'm so sorry it came to this. I wish you well whatever may come.

This is insane..

I was a born again for a bit. It's a survival mechanism. Makes you not think well, especially when hearing people out and speaking to others. Whoever posted that, know you're doing more damage than good. Let "god" do the work or whatever. It's seriously rude to bring that nonsense into people's conversations about serious, tangible problems.