Going to CTB Tonight

[lotuss_biscoff]

For context, 22:50 right now, planning to CTB at around 00:00, I will be using SN, no other drugs, I have fasted for aproximately 6-7 hours.

There's not much to say about the why I'm gonna CTB, lost almost all the pillars in my life, I can't sleep, can't work, can't be at peace, got tachycardias every time I think about what used to be my friends or my girlfriend, I'm getting laid off my job this Friday. I just can't bear it anymore, I am very sorry for the pain this will cause and I hope every person I meant something for will not be very affected by this. I'm deeply grateful for being a part of this community and meeting the people I have met here. I will be updating so feel free to ask any questions.

 

[alwaysalone]

For context, 22:50 right now, planning to CTB at around 00:00, I will be using SN, no other drugs, I have fasted for aproximately 6-7 hours.

There's not much to say about the why I'm gonna CTB, lost almost all the pillars in my life, I can't sleep, can't work, can't be at peace, got tachycardias every time I think about what used to be my friends or my girlfriend, I'm getting laid off my job this Friday. I just can't bear it anymore, I am very sorry for the pain this will cause and I hope every person I meant something for will not be very affected by this. I'm deeply grateful for being a part of this community and meeting the people I have met here. I will be updating so feel free to ask any questions.

I hope you find the peace you're looking for. Trying to live can be exhausting. Be well and safe journey.

 

[Kalista]

leave well

 

[sweetreliefpls]

For context, 22:50 right now, planning to CTB at around 00:00, I will be using SN, no other drugs, I have fasted for aproximately 6-7 hours.

There's not much to say about the why I'm gonna CTB, lost almost all the pillars in my life, I can't sleep, can't work, can't be at peace, got tachycardias every time I think about what used to be my friends or my girlfriend, I'm getting laid off my job this Friday. I just can't bear it anymore, I am very sorry for the pain this will cause and I hope every person I meant something for will not be very affected by this. I'm deeply grateful for being a part of this community and meeting the people I have met here. I will be updating so feel free to ask any questions.

I hope it goes well. Sorry it's come to this but I understand the feeling. May you find the swift exit you want.

Will you have two cups ready in case you need the second one?
Will you message any symptoms once you take it, or be off here then?

 

[FishRain3469]

Damn, I'm sorry to hear all of that. I can certainly relate sadly..

Blessings and Prayers to you in whatever may happen, Godspeed. ♥

 

[lotuss_biscoff]

I hope it goes well. Sorry it's come to this but I understand the feeling. May you find the swift exit you want.

Will you have two cups ready in case you need the second one?
Will you message any symptoms once you take it, or be off here then?

I'm not sure about the second cup because I fear my cat will be curious and taste it, but if I can I will be preparing a second cup, about the symptoms I'd rather be with myself, I know it would help others knowing the process but I just can't see myself waiting for the bus while explaining symptoms

 

[Leyna]

I wish you the best

 

[opheliaoveragain]

we're here with you

 

[misanthropemurder]

I wish you the best <3

 

[bankai]

Wish you peace my friend.

 

[darksouls]

good luck
hope everything goes well
and you find relief from suffering

 

[spero_meliora]

May you find the peace you seek on your journey

 

[gothbird]

If this is the moment, then may it be peaceful. Stars don't burn forever. Some go quietly, some go bright. Either way, their light lingers. Yours will too, for those who knew you.

Travel safe. See you in the stars!

 

[tulero]

best luck

 

[lotuss_biscoff]

Very late update: had to reschedule, just prepared it, took a sip, salty as fuck, still very drinkable. If I don't update tomorrow I'm probably not around

 

[opheliaoveragain]

sending love.

 

[lotuss_biscoff]

Thanks to all the people that wished me good luck and a peaceful exit, I hope you all the best of lucks, and for those of you that are planning, maybe we will meet in the next stop.

 

[finalgoodbye:(]

I'm sorry it has come down to this

 

[Metro]

Very late update: had to reschedule, just prepared it, took a sip, salty as fuck, still very drinkable. If I don't update tomorrow I'm probably not around

Wdym? Did you drink all of it? Even a tiny amount could be deadly, please get help and call emergency services. Regardless I hope you can reconsider in that time, I wish you the best and I hope you can recover

 

[LeavingEarly]

Very late update: had to reschedule, just prepared it, took a sip, salty as fuck, still very drinkable. If I don't update tomorrow I'm probably not around

I thought you needed something to prevent vomiting?

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find peace from suffering, I wish you the best.