Venting My last year, maybe

[7000bees]

I've realized that 2026 will likely be my final year alive, unless there's some sort of major positive change in my life. After I graduate uni, I don't have anything planned out, and I would honestly rather just stop existing than be a worthless NEET and a drain on my family. So far, this year's been off to a shitty start: spent NYE alone (as always), barely left my room, and have been ghosted by one of the only people who I have ever really considered a friend. I've been dealing with this shit for so long, and I can barely see a future for myself anymore. I know that the new year is a totally arbitrary benchmark, but 2026 is the first I've gone into where I've seriously began to think that it might be my last one. Anyways, random rant post, thanks for reading.