My last post (hopefully)

[DimaD]

I wanted to ctb next Friday, so my anitemetics would arrive in time for the SN. Thing is I still live with my parents and everything seemed clear till today, where my father found out, he doesn´t have to work next Friday, so he will be home. I waited months for this day and now within moments it was taken away from me. I can´t seem to win. No matter what I do. I won´t be able to get a chance for months to do it , when they are at work. My full-time vocational college program starts on September 16th. I do not want to go there and continue to live for quite a long time, till I get another chance. I do not have the energy no more.

My only option is Saturday, in 2 days. Where they all will be out of the house for a few hours. I have no other choice no more, than to do it with only the SN and the painkillers. Even though I wanted to go with antiemetics, so it would´ve been easier. My worst nightmare is , that I will be found and saved or that I can not even hold it in and throw most of it up and survive. If I land in the hospital, everything will come to light and then what? I will only eat light food like soup till Saturday, to maybe help the process a bit.

Wish me luck

 

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

Godspeed.

 

[Alexandra_]

Good luck to you. May everything turn out exactly as you wish

 

[gothbird]

I hope it's peaceful and warm.
I hope, in your next life, your belly is full and your heart is soft.
And if there's no next life, I'll see you in the stars.
Goodbye, traveller!

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find the relief you search for, I wish you the best.

 

[darksouls]

good luck
hope everything goes well for you
wish you the best

 

[Britney Spears]

find peace darling a big hug

 

[cursedlife]

I wish you the best on your journey to the other side , godspeed .

 

[sweetreliefpls]

I wanted to ctb next Friday, so my anitemetics would arrive in time for the SN. Thing is I still live with my parents and everything seemed clear till today, where my father found out, he doesn´t have to work next Friday, so he will be home. I waited months for this day and now within moments it was taken away from me. I can´t seem to win. No matter what I do. I won´t be able to get a chance for months to do it , when they are at work. My full-time vocational college program starts on September 16th. I do not want to go there and continue to live for quite a long time, till I get another chance. I do not have the energy no more.

My only option is Saturday, in 2 days. Where they all will be out of the house for a few hours. I have no other choice no more, than to do it with only the SN and the painkillers. Even though I wanted to go with antiemetics, so it would´ve been easier. My worst nightmare is , that I will be found and saved or that I can not even hold it in and throw most of it up and survive. If I land in the hospital, everything will come to light and then what? I will only eat light food like soup till Saturday, to maybe help the process a bit.

Wish me luck

I hope whatever you choose to do brings you peace.
I was going to message you about a previous post but just found this.
Wish you grace and relief