This is my last month. I want to die since I was 6 and it's finally going to happen. Most of the time I feel calm about my ctb, sometimes I get excited and sometimes anxious. Unexpectedly I suddenly feel so much love and compassion for myself and it's pleasant. I want to send myself to the other side with the knowledge and the feeling that in my source I am a seed of love (like all of us - this is what I believe) . But no seed can grow and flower without enough sun and water. I have repeatedly failed in trying to make myself happy and express myself without shame and now nothing and no one is connecting me to this world anymore. I just want to fly into the eternal nothingness, and I'm so happy it's going to be soon.
Gromit-CTB
time for ctb
- Nov 14, 2020
- 847
Thank you, Gromit, I hope we will both find peace soonMine as well OP. Hope journey is peaceful
Good for you that you have a plan and date!
I'll probably die next year too but I'm not sure about the date.
I wanna win my freedom back, drink lots of alcohol, relax and then I'll make a proper plan and choose a date.
I'll probably die next year too but I'm not sure about the date.
I wanna win my freedom back, drink lots of alcohol, relax and then I'll make a proper plan and choose a date.
demuic
Life was a mistake
- Sep 12, 2020
- 1,383
I hope that you finally manage to find peace I wish you best of lucks
I wish you best of lucksThis will be my final holdays too i hope next month i die