My last month

[Lil]

This is my last month. I want to die since I was 6 and it's finally going to happen. Most of the time I feel calm about my ctb, sometimes I get excited and sometimes anxious. Unexpectedly I suddenly feel so much love and compassion for myself and it's pleasant. I want to send myself to the other side with the knowledge and the feeling that in my source I am a seed of love (like all of us - this is what I believe) . But no seed can grow and flower without enough sun and water. I have repeatedly failed in trying to make myself happy and express myself without shame and now nothing and no one is connecting me to this world anymore. I just want to fly into the eternal nothingness, and I'm so happy it's going to be soon.

 

[Gromit-CTB]

Mine as well OP. Hope journey is peaceful

 

[Lil]

Mine as well OP. Hope journey is peaceful

Thank you, Gromit, I hope we will both find peace soon

 

[WornOutLife]

Good for you that you have a plan and date!
I'll probably die next year too but I'm not sure about the date.
I wanna win my freedom back, drink lots of alcohol, relax and then I'll make a proper plan and choose a date.

 

[demuic]

That sounds lovely

 

[RepressedMind]

I hope that you finally manage to find peace I wish you best of lucks

 

[lonerclown666]

This will be my final holdays too i hope next month i die