Venting My home is disgusting and i don't have the strength to clean anymore

[huntrix#1fan]

I live in an old shitty apartment. Constant problems with mice and bugs. Always surrounded by spiders and cockroaches. One day i spent HOURS wiping down my apartment, cleaning up disgusting amounts of mouse pee and shit. I took foam and steel wool and i closed every entrance I could find. set up cockroach bait. i bought mouse traps and set them down with bait. i thought i solved it, and i was so proud of myself. ......until today when i saw a mouse, maybe a rat who knows, in a different room. I am so fucking tired i broke down crying. I feel disgusting. I have episodes of severe depression where i can not do anything. i can not get out of bed let alone do chores. i try so so hard. i live by myself. i cook and i clean and i do my own laundry. and yet i live in these shit conditions. too poor too afford better. too tired to change. too tired to bathe everyday or even eat. i want to go to sleep forever. i want to never wake up

 

[metfan647]

I know it's an extra responsibility you might not need right now but a cat would do wonders for the mice/rat situation and they're great companions.

 

[huntrix#1fan]

I know it's an extra responsibility you might not need right now but a cat would do wonders for the mice/rat situation and they're great companions.

i suppose i should consider it. I just worry I will not be able to care for it properly

 

[metfan647]

Is the mice situation your own doing or is it due to hygiene/waste issues in the area?

If it's the latter, are you able to involve the landlord or the local council (UK term, not sure where you are)?

 

[huntrix#1fan]

Is the mice situation your own doing or is it due to hygiene/waste issues in the area?

If it's the latter, are you able to involve the landlord or the local council (UK term, not sure where you are)?

I live in NYC, so mice are not uncommon. They will pop up every now and then. though usually it is not this bad of a problem. My building is really just shitty, dirty and old. There are too many cracks for them to get through,. My landlord works has worked with pest control before but i guess theres only so much they can do. Maybe some of it is my fault, I don't clean as much as I should.

 

[E5463656]

you should get a cat actually unironically good advice

 

[unluckysadness]

My home is messy and I live alone too. I don't have the ernergy to clean it. I have too much things everywhere.

 

[dontwakemeup]

I'll give you advice that helps me.
1. I don't plan ahead, because I usually let myself down.
2. On your better days, set a goal to clean 1 small area. It may take a month to complete your whole apartment, so what. Once that goal is completed, congratulate yourself and stop for that day.
3. Recognize when you have a bad day that ot is on! Do whatever you want that day! I love cake and ice-cream so I usually eat that.
4. Most importantly, keep your mind busy! I wear my airpods on my terrible days and it helps. Listen to pleasant music or audio books. I crank the volume up and focus on what I'm listening to.
Hopefully, something is said can help you.