iamalreadydead
Student
- Nov 25, 2022
- 156
shes had a nice friend group around her a little after we broke up when we were young teens, we only just reconnected 2 years ago and it seems like her friend group all dissipated when she broke up with her ex, and recently her, for all intensive purposes despite them not really speaking, best friend sent a "break up" text in the chat with only my gf and one other friend in it, saying he doesn't feel appreciated by them, and left. sometimes i go through her phone (not behind her back, we both have access to eachothers phones and the only time im ever on it truly is to play pranks on her like change her wallpaper and shit) and i see that the top and only person in her messaging app is me, its me on instagram, tiktok, tumblr, discord, and it just makes me so fucking sad and upset.
Ive been having a hard time lately with work and anhedonia and chronic body pain and fatigue and i also dont have many friends, i have her and a handful of people i talk to, but i've been mentally unwell since i was 8 years old and i keep thinking about dying and ctb and how i cant keep up with going to work everyday and how much easier it would be if i died, and i used to think she'd be better off, but its increasingly obvious she probably wouldnt
Ive been having a hard time lately with work and anhedonia and chronic body pain and fatigue and i also dont have many friends, i have her and a handful of people i talk to, but i've been mentally unwell since i was 8 years old and i keep thinking about dying and ctb and how i cant keep up with going to work everyday and how much easier it would be if i died, and i used to think she'd be better off, but its increasingly obvious she probably wouldnt
