iamalreadydead
Student
- Nov 25, 2022
- 153
shes been doing extremely bad this month and ive been unemployed for like a couple months passively suicidal but ive been passively suicidal since i was 8. i start work tomorrow and the job i was doing for a full year before this one i wanted to die every time i had to go back to it after the weekend, i immediately feel the same dread just knowing i have to be there tomorrow and the next three days. our rent is $1300, i dont want to be a human i want to be nothing but at the same time i dont, i want to take care of my girlfriend who is also my lifelong friend financially and also live an enjoyable life. But i am extremely tired every day even when i do absolutely nothing, like ive been walking waist deep in mud and the air has been dense for 15 years straight. Why. Why did i have to be stripped clean of hope at such a stupid fucking age
