Venting my friends know and they don't care

[couldntcareless]

idk if i can even call these people friends anymore but it is what it is. everyone i talk to knows i'm suicidal af but they act like this theme is taboo. when i tried to reach out and talk to them about it, they all changed the topic or just left me on read.
lol

 

[NotUrDream]

some people just be fake as hell, nobody gives a damn about you or what you're going through until they find you lifeless. because to them, it's almost never a big deal if you're not very expressive or are reserved. And sometimes, even if you try to express yourself, to them it just looks like drama or like you're seeking their attention

 

[couldntcareless]

some people just be fake as hell, nobody gives a damn about you or what you're going through until they find you lifeless. because to them, it's almost never a big deal if you're not very expressive or are reserved. And sometimes, even if you try to express yourself, to them it just looks like drama or like you're seeking their attention

exactly.

 

[NotUrDream]

exactly.

And what really pisses me off is that I'm always alone because I never have the guts to message people first, so whenever I try to open up a bit about my feelings, I always get cursed at or mocked, People js be having difficulty even to pretend to care

 

[couldntcareless]

And what really pisses me off is that I'm always alone because I never have the guts to message people first, so whenever I try to open up a bit about my feelings, I always get cursed at or mocked, People js be having difficulty even to pretend to care

i get it cause i been dealing w the same shit. they lack emotional intelligence ig. and ofc after u had the worst day in ur life they venting bout some shit that is nothing compared to ur problems

 

[plskilme]

One friend (and co-worker) of mine knows and she wants me to take off of work for a bit to focus on my mental health. It worked for her. I want to, but need the money bad as fuckkkkkkk.
Other friend who knows keeps saying he really can't help, and to just get therapy or get on meds for it or some shit. He knows I've tried both that multiple times, and it never fucking works long term. He's moving out of the country completely soon (I'm lowkey upset about it). I just have 0 idea where to turn to anywhere. Tried to open up to family about my feelings lowkey and they fucking brushed it off. I have no idea what to do anymore...