Venting my friends know and they don't care

[goodbad&ugly777]

I'm in the same boat and honestly I think that when I CTB is the only time anyone's going to care about me in any meaningful way. I have nothing and nobody in my life except 2 parents who only care about the grades I bring home. And a week after I CTB I'll go back to being forgotten and it's a horrible feeling. There's no escape for me even if I'm dead. I'm still going to be alone. And I'm still going to be a background character and forgotten about. I hate that, but I guess the only good thing about me being dead soon is that I won't be able to recognize it all. I have a few people who it might affect for a while, but nobody's gonna be remembering the day I died in 5 years. Nobody, no friends, literally nobody. I think if someone would just put me first MAYBE I wouldn't CTB, but I guess its not as easy as just "being put first"

 

[couldntcareless]

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I'm in the same boat and honestly I think that when I CTB is the only time anyone's going to care about me in any meaningful way. I have nothing and nobody in my life except 2 parents who only care about the grades I bring home. And a week after I CTB I'll go back to being forgotten and it's a horrible feeling. There's no escape for me even if I'm dead. I'm still going to be alone. And I'm still going to be a background character and forgotten about. I hate that, but I guess the only good thing about me being dead soon is that I won't be able to recognize it all. I have a few people who it might affect for a while, but nobody's gonna be remembering the day I died in 5 years. Nobody, no friends, literally nobody. I think if someone would just put me first MAYBE I wouldn't CTB, but I guess its not as easy as just "being put first"

i feel that man. you can pm me if u want