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completely-done

completely-done

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Jan 31, 2022
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I had a mental breakdown in front of my friend. I'm so stupid.

He called the psych on me. Sucks ass

I'll see you guys in a few days, oh my godddddd
 
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UpandDownPrincess

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Dec 31, 2019
833
Hang in there. We will be thinking of you until we see you again.
 
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completely-done

Experienced
Jan 31, 2022
211
At least my desire to ctb will be stronger. Just gotta play the psych's game by their rules until I earn my freedom to get out of the ward.

I'm gonna downplay everything that was reported lol fml
 
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Kristicide

Kristicide

I am a prisoner locked up behind xanax bars
Dec 16, 2021
330
I've been there. They say they do it for your benefit but it's really for their own. Sorry that happened to you.
 
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completely-done

Experienced
Jan 31, 2022
211
I've been there. They say they do it for your benefit but it's really for their own. Sorry that happened to you.
Yeah, they do it so they're free from "liability".

I wish I kept my emotions in check. I literally talk to myself during the the day, I'm so alone so when a little steam comes out the whole volcano frigging erupts. Damn it. Lesson learned
 
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whatevs

whatevs

Mining for copium in the weirdest places.
Jan 15, 2022
2,913
At least my desire to ctb will be stronger. Just gotta play the psych's game by their rules until I earn my freedom to get out of the ward.

I'm gonna downplay everything that was reported lol fml
This idea that "my desire to CTB increasing is a good thing" comes from already decided that you want to do it
and thus anything that reinforces the decision is positive? Normally, we don't want unpleasant feelings to proliferate.
 
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onleana

we'll meet again
Nov 19, 2021
88
This idea that "my desire to CTB increasing is a good thing" comes from already decided that you want to do it
and thus anything that reinforces the decision is positive? Normally, we don't want unpleasant feelings to proliferate.
im not OP but i'll answer for myself: if the desire to cbt is increasing its easier to cbt. i want to cbt constantly and im in agonizing pain everyday but nothing has sent me over the edge yet. i want my desire to increse so i can finally be 10000% sure i am ready and finally do it. if it doesn't increse i will not cbt and live in suffering for the rest of my life. sorry for eng
 
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Dot

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Sep 26, 2021
3,257
I had a mental breakdown in front of my friend. I'm so stupid.

He called the psych on me. Sucks ass

I'll see you guys in a few days, oh my godddddd
It dffclt bcse mst ppl nt wnt sm1 dth on thr conscnce & ur frnd mght genulny cre abt u & nt wn2 lse u

Srry tht happnd 2 u thgh
 
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Jan 17, 2022
146
Good luck!
 
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Feeding Pigeons

Feeding Pigeons

Warlock
Aug 5, 2021
776
Welp, now you know you can't reveal that side of yourself to that friend. That sucks.

Safe trip, get out soon.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
42,605
I'm sorry you are going through this. I can imagine it must be awful being stuck in a psych ward. I wish you the best.
 
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bloodfallsfirst

bloodfallsfirst

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Nov 2, 2021
73
Best of luck, and we'll be waiting for when you come out.
 
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TheBestUsernameEver

Student
Dec 26, 2021
111
I had a mental breakdown in front of my friend. I'm so stupid.

He called the psych on me. Sucks ass

I'll see you guys in a few days, oh my godddddd
Bear in mind that he did it because he cares about you and wants you to recover.

I know it gets your back up when you're admitted and it feels as though the world is falling in on you, but it really isn't.
This is another stepping stone towards recovery 🙂
 
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Maaizr

Maaizr

LIGHTSTEALER
Aug 2, 2021
148
Bear in mind that he did it because he cares about you and wants you to recover.

I know it gets your back up when you're admitted and it feels as though the world is falling in on you, but it really isn't.
This is another stepping stone towards recovery
🙂
lmao how do you know this?
 
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TheBestUsernameEver

Student
Dec 26, 2021
111
lmao how do you know this?
Because I understand what it means to be a normal human being.

I also understand what it feels like to be in a very dark place and be sectioned, and then to recover.
 
Crazy4u

Crazy4u

Enlightened
Sep 29, 2021
1,318
I didn't want to comment but here I am. please ignore the insensitive comments and remember there are prolifers who pretend to be suicidals here. Do whatever you need to do to get out of the mental jail.

We will be here for you. I wish you the best.
 
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completely-done

Experienced
Jan 31, 2022
211
I didn't want to comment but here I am. please ignore the insensitive comments and remember there are prolifers who pretend to be suicidals here. Do whatever you need to do to get out of the mental jail.

We will be here for you. I wish you the best.
Yeah some of the comments that question the sincerity of my desire to ctb hurt a bit. But I just brush it off, people will have their opinions so whatever lol

I made a mistake in confiding in a friend about mental suffering because I was talking to them at an emotional vulnerable time. I thought he would just be like "there there" and pat on me on my shoulder and get on with his day. Big mistake on my part, lesson learned. No biggie.
Update: I got out an hour ago!
 
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Angi

Specialist
Jan 4, 2022
305
I am sorry you confided in someone (even if it was not entirely your choice) and they let you down. This must have been very painful. Regardless of how much future you may have, I hope you find a stronger friend to share it with.

Unrelatedly, 93 posts in just over 1 day, wow. Your really found the forum you want to share with!
 
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completely-done

Experienced
Jan 31, 2022
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I am sorry you confided in someone (even if it was not entirely your choice) and they let you down. This must have been very painful. Regardless of how much future you may have, I hope you find a stronger friend to share it with.

Unrelatedly, 93 posts in just over 1 day, wow. Your really found the forum you want to share with!
Thank you for understanding. Yes I feel really understood at SS, I'm not shamed here
 
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Seiba

Seiba

Mage
Jun 13, 2021
505
Yeah some of the comments that question the sincerity of my desire to ctb hurt a bit. But I just brush it off, people will have their opinions so whatever lol

I made a mistake in confiding in a friend about mental suffering because I was talking to them at an emotional vulnerable time. I thought he would just be like "there there" and pat on me on my shoulder and get on with his day. Big mistake on my part, lesson learned. No biggie.
Update: I got out an hour ago!
How was it? I hope at worst it was just boring and you didn't have to go through anything horrible.
 
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waitingforrest

Elementalist
Dec 27, 2021
842
Because I understand what it means to be a normal human being.

I also understand what it feels like to be in a very dark place and be sectioned, and then to recover.
But being normal doesn't give you the power to see the future. Just because you recover doesn't mean the op will. Everyone's situation is different. Though clairvoyance would be great to have in the stock market.

Does this mean the normies are secretly wizards?
 
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completely-done

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Jan 31, 2022
211
How was it? I hope at worst it was just boring and you didn't have to go through anything horrible.
Thank you :heart: Yeah it was boring. I maintained a "normal" and "this is all a misunderstanding" disposition and they eventually figured out that I'm sane. So they let me go. I was super kind to them and made sure to thank them profusely for looking after me. If you met me IRL I look like I have never thought of ctb in my whole life. It's just how I carry myself to avoid suspicion.
 
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TheBestUsernameEver

Student
Dec 26, 2021
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But being normal doesn't give you the power to see the future. Just because you recover doesn't mean the op will. Everyone's situation is different. Though clairvoyance would be great to have in the stock market.

Does this mean the normies are secretly wizards?
Yes but you don't know who will recover and who won't. You're no wizard, either.
The vast majority of people who experience mental health problems go on to make a recovery.
 
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waitingforrest

Elementalist
Dec 27, 2021
842
Yes but you don't know who will recover and who won't. You're no wizard, either.
The vast majority of people who experience mental health problems go on to make a recovery.
And there are those who don't. That's why some are on this forum. Even if the vast majority recover, it isn't fair to just say, "you will get better" to every person that has issues.

It's really nice of you to wish for recovery, but to promise recovery is what antagonizes people on here. It brushes off the harsh reality of the situation, it has come to ctb because there is no other escape or choice.

None of us knows what will happen in the future. But it isn't right to assume that we do know for others when we only know them from a screen. We can only take what we know from their posts and avoid making things worse. Especially on this site, you have to really be careful of what you say, the intentions may be good, but the reception may be negative.

If you had said that in the recovery section, none of us would be debating with you. The problem lies in that this is the suicide discussion section. Positive words are not expected on this section unless the poster explicitly asks for it.

I really don't want to further derail from what op posted. Op is asking for support and arguing on won't help them. I don't expect you to understand my viewpoint, but know that not many people appreciate hearing positive statements.

I won't be further replying on about this topic.
 
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And there are those who don't. That's why some are on this forum. Even if the vast majority recover, it isn't fair to just say, "you will get better" to every person that has issues.

It's really nice of you to wish for recovery, but to promise recovery is what antagonizes people on here. It brushes off the harsh reality of the situation, it has come to ctb because there is no other escape or choice.

None of us knows what will happen in the future. But it isn't right to assume that we do know for others when we only know them from a screen. We can only take what we know from their posts and avoid making things worse. Especially on this site, you have to really be careful of what you say, the intentions may be good, but the reception may be negative.

If you had said that in the recovery section, none of us would be debating with you. The problem lies in that this is the suicide discussion section. Positive words are not expected on this section unless the poster explicitly asks for it.

I really don't want to further derail from what op posted. Op is asking for support and arguing on won't help them. I don't expect you to understand my viewpoint, but know that not many people appreciate hearing positive statements.

I won't be further replying on about this topic.
Thank you for saying what I find difficult to articulate. I really appreciate this :heart:
 
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TheBestUsernameEver

Student
Dec 26, 2021
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And there are those who don't. That's why some are on this forum. Even if the vast majority recover, it isn't fair to just say, "you will get better" to every person that has issues.

It's really nice of you to wish for recovery, but to promise recovery is what antagonizes people on here. It brushes off the harsh reality of the situation, it has come to ctb because there is no other escape or choice.

None of us knows what will happen in the future. But it isn't right to assume that we do know for others when we only know them from a screen. We can only take what we know from their posts and avoid making things worse. Especially on this site, you have to really be careful of what you say, the intentions may be good, but the reception may be negative.

If you had said that in the recovery section, none of us would be debating with you. The problem lies in that this is the suicide discussion section. Positive words are not expected on this section unless the poster explicitly asks for it.

I really don't want to further derail from what op posted. Op is asking for support and arguing on won't help them. I don't expect you to understand my viewpoint, but know that not many people appreciate hearing positive statements.

I won't be further replying on about this topic.
I think it's very dangerous to say things like:

"it has come to ctb because there is no other escape or choice"

and

"Positive words are not expected on this section"

This attitude has no doubt contributed at least in part to the reputation this forum has within the media.
Writing as though each of us are resigned to ending our lives is immoral and deeply unhealthy, and makes viewers (read the media) question the intentions of some users on this forum.

If I had given a platform for toxic positivity, I would understand your comments. However, all I said was that the person who contacted the psych had done so out of concern, just like most normal people would.
In addition, I attempted to encourage the OP to view this as a stepping stone to recovery.

I don't expect you to understand my viewpoint either.
 
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Rogue Proxy

Rogue Proxy

Enlightened
Sep 12, 2021
1,315
Update: I got out an hour ago!
Congratulations on extricating yourself! It's absolutely atrocious how anyone can be criminalized, tormented, and locked up just for not being a happy, obedient social robot every waking moment.
 
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