Venting my film SUICIDELAND

[DeathSweetDeath]

Someone who knew her commented on the animation itself so I assume it's likely she has passed.

Can you elaborate? Someone who knew her personally? Googling her name, no such news comes up.

 

[Set Real Goul]

Can you elaborate? Someone who knew her personally? Googling her name, no such news comes up.

He probably means the comments under her YouTube videos, if you filter them by date

 

[melon-melancholy]

Can you elaborate? Someone who knew her personally? Googling her name, no such news comes up.

I really enjoyed the film and appreciated all they types of representation? Are you sure she passed?

 

[Mr.Ruben]

it was a wonderful film project. truly.
As someone who has ben doing art for years and now starting on 2D animation, grew up with animation movies done with love and hand drawings, I truly respect the creator. And I only wish like any other famous creators that pass away, we respect their works, and embrace them.

 

[Set Real Goul]

I really enjoyed the film and appreciated all they types of representation? Are you sure she passed?

She had a goodbye thread on august 3rd, and no one has heard anything from her since. So, most likely, she went through with ctb...

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

I really enjoyed the film and appreciated all they types of representation? Are you sure she passed?

Well, that's the big question.

She had a goodbye thread on august 3rd, and no one has heard anything from her since. So, most likely, she went through with ctb...

Yes, it can be assumed that she went through with it on August 3, that is not what's in question. In her words, she was under "suicide watch" at home at the time. If you google her name, nothing comes up relating to a death notice or obituary. It's possible that her family found her & hospitalized her before she could pass.

 

[N@te]

i've heard every piece of advice there is but there's nothing that's changing the fact that the world is ending. ai is going to take every job, and current news says that like… 40% of the population will die by 2050 because of the projected heat increase. This is not just like some one-off news article i read. i have been a climate activist and spoken with greta thunberg and others in person. like, i have no hope for this planet. i think everyone is going to die.

everyone says "they always thought that it would be the end throughout human history but they were wrong" what if they're not this time? i really don't think they're wrong this time. it's like a boy who cried wolf situation. you say a warning a bunch of times and it doesnt come true, so when it actually happens nobody believes it. 20,000 people have died in Europe in like the last month because of the heat, heat that we knew was coming for years and years prior. and these are first world countries. people are dying in india. the human race won't go extinct, sure, but thats because the elite 1% hoards everything. when they survive and their offspring survive, they'll think "wow humanity is so resilient" but the 99% of us that are going to die cannot say this.

call me weak or something but i just don't want to die a slow and painful death like everyone else. my life has already been hell, i wouldnt want to let it get even worse. at least i can have the dignity of deciding how and when to die. i always thought id die since i was 11, i al ways wanted to die by suicide (though i never really explicitly stated it anywhere) but even if i survived i wanted to die by suicide at like 60. but the world kept getting worse. i attempted at 14, then at 18, 19 and now im 20 (soon to be 21) and i plan to die two weeks before my 21st birthday. its just hard.

im grappling with so many people telling me that they look forward to my next project, im getting international work opportunities that i dreamed of having, someone who works at disney wanted to collaborate with me. i mean, its everything i ever wanted… but how long will it really last? i think the world is going to end no matter how many good things happen right now. i just want to be at peace, im almost itching to die at the soonest opportunity possible.

hi! thank you so much. first off, there's the obvious ones with the character designs. every character in suicideland has a design that reflects the way they died. people who slit their arteries have red and white striped sleeves. people who hung themselves get noose-shaped scarves. people who broke their bones get crutches.
i wanted to contrast the two main characters in the ways they died. Amrita dies because of long-term abuse and she dies a similarly slow, painful, and really really statistically unsuccessful death. she was determined to die, even if it hurt her. As for Lola, she dies an instant death by jumping off a building, and similarly her cause of death is also over a relatively more impulse decision after a breakup.

Another fun detail people haven't caught onto is that there is a train that passes in the climax of the film. The name of this train is the Dead Line (like how you have a Yellow Line or a blue Line metro, or an underground line, whatever). I initially wanted Amrita to board this train to travel to the cliff, where she could die her second death and stop existing. But i felt it was a bit too awkward to have her ride a train and broke the flow. So i came up with this idea of the train transporting you by simply passing by you, instead of you riding it. The Dead Line has already passed by. and it transports you to where you want to be.

There is a white butterfly in some parts of the film too, which represents self harm. Drawing the butterfly on is a common method of like, struggling with it. So that's obviously included.

A kind of fun detail that i can't say without getting flagged on YouTube is that amrita has my scars. I kind of drew them on exactly the way I have them.

I'm kind of sleepy, feel free to ask more stuff. this is what's off the top of my head.

oh my god bruh