
rabbithole
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- Oct 26, 2020
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And I’m planning my suicide. And trust me I don’t want to be, I just can’t see another way. This is an awful situation. I don’t want to hurt them.
f this.
f this.
Already had major depression, social anxiety and BDD...then became disabled by a routine procedure. no longer have any sexual function and have horrendous pain off and on. No friends, and lost my bf who was my favorite human and the reason I was keeping my head above water.Why you ctb?
I’m so sorry you were driven to this point by unfortunate circumstances. I also struggle with anxiety, BDD and sexual dysfunction. It takes a massive toll on one’s quality of life. I pray that you can find some relief, whatever the path you end up choosing may be.Already had major depression, social anxiety and BDD...then became disabled by a routine procedure. no longer have any sexual function and have horrendous pain off and on. No friends, and lost my bf who was my favorite human and the reason I was keeping my head above water.
It’s so hard to see everyone happy when you know they’re going to be crushed because of you.I understand what you mean... My family has been decorating the past week.... And I've helped some as well to try and not Lose my damn mind. Fck. =\
Thoughts and prayers to you,. I get it. ❤️
I’m so sorry. Thank you for your kind words, truly. I hope you find relief as well...and really I hope you find a solution that isn’t ctb. I have such a tough time supporting suicide in any way because I always used to believe there were a million options...now I can see how someone can truly be at the end of their rope and have no options. So I wish you peace in whatever form it has to take.I’m so sorry you were driven to this point by unfortunate circumstances. I also struggle with anxiety, BDD and sexual dysfunction. It takes a massive toll on one’s quality of life. I pray that you can find some relief, whatever the path you end up choosing may be.![]()