Story My failed attempt and my new plan

[Claymore7274]

It's been months since my last attempt, back in 2025 i cut ties with my only friends, something i still hurt to this day, i went limp with the rope on my neck, passed out and faceplanted on the ground with the wardrobe i used as an anchor point over me, a terrible accident, bruised my head, i had a brain concussion, fractured my nose and lots of mental trauma, it was fucking terrifying to find me under there, alive with the rope still on my neck, each night i relive the moment

An accident i managed to mask as a workout session that went bad (i got lucky no one arrived while i was unconscious)

I have finished writing my goodbye note for my family, finished watching a few shows i wanted to see (mostly) although i can't help but feel it all has been a huge waste, i regret every day being alive since the start of the year, really, it has been nothing but anguish and pain

I found a better anchor point. the security bars of my room's window, private, sturdy, stationary, no-way-in-hell-breaks anchor point, arbor knot for me and bowline knot for the window, if you guys have a better idea for the knots let me know

I'll begin to attempt partial this weekend until i finally make it, as unreliable as partial may be it's all i have, i'll make sure i make it this time, if someone wants to talk i'll be around

 

[Slark]

Your profile says: "destined to never be loved," and I feel the same way. I don't think anyone has ever truly loved me. I hope you'll be at least a little happier, whatever your choice may be.

 

[Claymore7274]

Your profile says: "destined to never be loved," and I feel the same way. I don't think anyone has ever truly loved me. I hope you'll be at least a little happier, whatever your choice may be.

Yeah, human interaction is fucking hard, and some of us are just not meant to be loved, unfortunately