TheCallOfTheStars
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- Oct 29, 2025
- 51
It's only been a week and a half since we split but I already want to get back with her. However, she hates me for all the horrible shit I've said and done while I was with her, and I'm admittedly afraid of her after the horrible shit she's said and done to me. We both ruined each others lives and dragged each other down to the point where we both became miserable people and yet, it feels like we depended on one another in the end, but not in a good way. It's like we were both social parasites leeching off one another until we had no love left to give and we were both hollow shells of one another. Though I feel like I've done more wrong to her than she ever did to me. I stayed with some very good friends of mine even after my ex-partner was visibly uncomfortable about them, I've made so many selfish demands to her until she gave in, took out my frustration on her, and overall I felt like I'm the one who broke her. Though all of that was because she was already broken from the beginning. When we split, she made me realize that I'm nothing more than pathetic scum who can't handle a relationship correctly. I want to get back because we understand each other better than anyone else ever could, but now I feel like she wants me dead and would be happier if I was gone because I was nothing but a parasite that didn't show any real love to her in the end.
