My Early Goodbye

[Lost in a Dream]

I'm planning on ending my life on Halloween or the day after. In the meantime, I've decided to leave the forum for good, so I wanted to say goodbye ahead of time. I've become a toxic pit of rage, so the less time I spend around people the better. If I don't come back before the end of October to say otherwise, it's best to assume I'm either dead or in the hospital from a failed attempt.

I'm letting all my closest friends know what's up too, at least the ones who I know will understand. No matter what happens, I still think of Sasu as my second home, but I have to leave this world altogether soon.

 

[zixd]

I'm planning on ending my life on Halloween or the day after. In the meantime, I've decided to leave the forum for good, so I wanted to say goodbye ahead of time. I've become a toxic pit of rage, so the less time I spend around people the better. If I don't come back before the end of October to say otherwise, it's best to assume I'm either dead or in the hospital from a failed attempt.

I'm letting all my closest friends know what's up too, at least the ones who I know will understand. No matter what happens, I still think of Sasu as my second home, but I have to leave this world altogether soon.

Lets hope you wont face hospital , and R.I.P already.. i know ot might sounds cold but there is pain ... , i shall follow next i hope

 

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

Godspeed.

 

[darksouls]

good luck
hope everything goes well for you
I wish you the best

 

[ElTopo]

Good luck

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find the relief you search for, I wish you the best.

 

[bankai]

We love you too, OP. If this is what you decide, then it's fine. And if it's not, then that's also fine.

We'll be here for you either way.

 

[Ch4in3dcr0w]

Find the relive u needed for so long good luck

 

[SoulWhisperer]

Best of luck with future events

 

[Anonymousa]

Whatever happens, I hope you can escape the pain you are in, one way or another. You are welcome to come back if you want to.

 

[Lost in a Dream]

I came back briefly but my plans haven't changed. I have a hobby that is helping me last until then for now, but it's not meant to last. It's just a temporary project I want to finish before I go. I won't say what it is here, but I've told my friends about it and the ones who know I'm planning on leaving think it's pretty cool.

Thank you for all the replies. I might stop by here from time to time, but probably not very often.

 

[knickknack81]

Best of luck, no matter what you decide to you. SS will always be there for you if needed.

 

[Lost in a Dream]

I've been doing some thinking and I don't think I can do this. Life feels like a prison sentence I was born into, but for now I have to endure it until I die in an accident.

 

[Hystearical]

I've been doing some thinking and I don't think I can do this. Life feels like a prison sentence I was born into, but for now I have to endure it until I die in an accident.

I feel that. Very horrible to still be struggling with all this

 

[Lost in a Dream]

I feel that. Very horrible to still be struggling with all this

It really is. I keep going back and forth between wanting to leave and being too afraid to do it. It's even possible I might leave sooner than I planned to originally just to try and get away from this 8 year struggle that's only gotten worse with time.

 

[Lost in a Dream]

I've decided that I'm not ready to die yet. Even though I don't want to end my life anymore at the moment, that could change in the future and I still think people who don't want to exist should have the right to die as always.

Truth is, I've found new hobbies that I enjoy, friends who I met here on Sasu that I play video games with regularly, and new favorite foods that make life worth living for me again. I'm glad this forum was here when I needed it, but for now I'm doing good and don't really feel like I need it anymore. I don't know if this is really recovery, just because the way I'm feeling now is probably just temporary.

I'm not really sure what recovery even means, since it means different things to different people. All I know is, I probably won't be back here for a while. Thank you Sasu and the mods for being here. It means a lot.

 

[Malfunction]

Glad you're feeling better.

I hope that things continue to improve for you.

 

[Freedomm]

In any case, I wish you happiness and peace no matter what happens.