My first language is spanish so im sorry if my english is bad.
Ive never felt happy, not even when i was a child, but my depression started when i was 12. My parents arent perfect, my mom is a narcissist and my dad just lets her say very rude stuff to me without saying a word. They always told me i was bigger than the girls my age and that i had to eat less, they bought me clothes that did not fit me to make me feel fat, my mom even pointed out my stretch marks and said i looked like a pregnant woman, so i did not have the best self steem. Throughout the years ive had experiences that have left me injured and im just so over my life, the only good thing about my life is my boyfriend, which i will not be able to see maybe until next year, we dont exactly know.
I want to wait for him but i am so tired of everything, im fat ive gained over 20 kg, i started drinking, i cant go out of my house cuz they dont want me to attempt again, im not taking therapy, i cant take it no more, i hate myself. I also got diagnosed with bpd last year
I want to ctb im looking for a way that would work for me
Ive never felt happy, not even when i was a child, but my depression started when i was 12. My parents arent perfect, my mom is a narcissist and my dad just lets her say very rude stuff to me without saying a word. They always told me i was bigger than the girls my age and that i had to eat less, they bought me clothes that did not fit me to make me feel fat, my mom even pointed out my stretch marks and said i looked like a pregnant woman, so i did not have the best self steem. Throughout the years ive had experiences that have left me injured and im just so over my life, the only good thing about my life is my boyfriend, which i will not be able to see maybe until next year, we dont exactly know.
I want to wait for him but i am so tired of everything, im fat ive gained over 20 kg, i started drinking, i cant go out of my house cuz they dont want me to attempt again, im not taking therapy, i cant take it no more, i hate myself. I also got diagnosed with bpd last year
I want to ctb im looking for a way that would work for me
