I think I maybe have someone in real life to help me out. I think I will ask him. If not, I don't get any troubles because he knows I'm suicidal.
I know about a couple who traveled together. One day she died from falling off the building they were on. People thought it was him pushed her down, but he never got suspected by police I think. Maybe we could do something like that?
Or if someone on here willing to do it, PM me. I don't have much money, but if I don't pay houserent the last month and save some money I will have a little bit.