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hippiedeath

hippiedeath

Dead on the inside
Jul 12, 2025
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My mother is a psychopath. She covers it up best she can but I see it. She has many fooled. I am totally trapped. She has taken my self esteem, my independence, my heart. It gives me very little to hope for other than her death or mine. She is 82. I pray to God she dies soon. I live with her now., and my dad who is a psychopath too.
 
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HelloKittySAD

HelloKittySAD

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Jul 25, 2025
7
Virtual hugs friend :heart: I've been through similar that's why things are the way they are for me now unfortunately. I hope things get better
 
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hippiedeath

hippiedeath

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Jul 12, 2025
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eupdplishlp

eupdplishlp

Please share with me what you are bearing
Jul 15, 2025
232
You deserve all the hugs. *sending virtual hugšŸ«‚* My mother had a negative effect on my mental health, I was removed by a social worker at 18 and this helped. I'm terribly sorry you've had to endure this, especially by your own parents.
 
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hippiedeath

hippiedeath

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Jul 12, 2025
249
Virtual hugs to you too
 
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Vlad Tepes

Vlad Tepes

Experienced
Jun 24, 2025
265
Same, friend. Same...
 
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telekon

telekon

Arcanist
Feb 5, 2025
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My mother is a psychopath. She covers it up best she can but I see it. She has many fooled. I am totally trapped. She has taken my self esteem, my independence, my heart. It gives me very little to hope for other than her death or mine.

I wonder how many men in this world could say these same words... I would venture a lot. It feels like I wrote them.
 
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Glazed_Orange

Glazed_Orange

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Aug 27, 2024
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Fuck. That's a special kind of hell—being trapped with not one but two psychopaths, and nobody else sees it. Of course you're exhausted. She's had decades to grind you down, and now you're just counting the days until either she's gone or you are. I don't blame you for praying for an end. Nobody should have to live like this.

Is there anything that gives you even a tiny break from them? A room you can lock, a walk you can take, anything? I know it's not freedom, but sometimes surviving minute-by-minute is all you can do.
 
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aleaiactaest

aleaiactaest

The die is cast
Aug 9, 2025
16
My mother is a psychopath. She covers it up best she can but I see it. She has many fooled. I am totally trapped. She has taken my self esteem, my independence, my heart. It gives me very little to hope for other than her death or mine. She is 82. I pray to God she dies soon. I live with her now., and my dad who is a psychopath too.
Solidarity, friend. Thankfully I don't live with my family anymore but my mother still tries to call or text me, and send me gifts.

Irredeemable narcissist, that one.

Spent over half a decade of my adult life living under her roof and it broke me. Nobody deserves that. You don't deserve that. Treat yourself to something nice one of these days. Hugs. šŸ«‚
 
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hippiedeath

hippiedeath

Dead on the inside
Jul 12, 2025
249
Fuck. That's a special kind of hell—being trapped with not one but two psychopaths, and nobody else sees it. Of course you're exhausted. She's had decades to grind you down, and now you're just counting the days until either she's gone or you are. I don't blame you for praying for an end. Nobody should have to live like this.

Is there anything that gives you even a tiny break from them? A room you can lock, a walk you can take, anything? I know it's not freedom, but sometimes surviving minute-by-minute is all you can do.
I stay in my room or go out. It does help. Thank you 😊
 
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