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SmallKoy

SmallKoy

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Jan 18, 2024
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I'm so tired of life right now and I honestly don't care about anyone or anything I just want to die. I self harmed on my hands and I'm worried that someone is going to see. I can't viably cover up my hands. I'm a completely disaster. I have absolutely nothing going for me in my life. I wish I could turn off my consciousness. I absolutely dread going to bed and having to wake up to another day like this.

I hope you're having a wonderful night.
 
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iloverachel

Enlightened
Mar 7, 2024
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Thanks for venting! We are listening
I can totally relate to what you say. I also dread going to sleep and waking to another day in life and I also suffer from crippling anxiety its the worse.

I really hope you feel better soon
 
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Lost Impact

Lost Impact

A Singular Atonement
Oct 31, 2023
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i used to do that to my hands too, it would burn a lot. making a fist was very hard.
 
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Ash

Ash

What dreams may come?
Oct 4, 2021
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I've also got SH scars on my hands. I did read why there's a strong psychological pull to hurt the hands but too tired to remember.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,690
I understand feeling so tired of suffering in this dreadful existence, I really wish there's the option to just fall into an dreamless, permanent sleep, to be eternally unaware is all that's ideal to me. But anyway I hope that you eventually find the freedom you search for.
 
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