wantingdignity
Little lost
- Apr 5, 2025
- 151
I feel numb. Everything is wrong. He and my family will hate me for not going. I can hear them every time I close my eyes. My dad invited me, but the last conversation we had was him saying that he failed as a father because of me. I hate how much his comments got to me. I was actually doing better and now I'm really, really struggling. I thought for sure that he'd apologize closer to time. I thought I'd yell at him for only apologizing because he didn't want to be embarrassed by the idea of me not showing up. But no, hes not even remotely thinking of me. He doesn't feel bad. He doesn't want me enough to even pretend to apologize.
I feel like things are so wrong in my life. Everything feels out of place. I'm so sad or numb all the time. My ambition is gone. I am just trying to not die. This time last year, I was doing so much and was learning and growing. Everything fell apart and I don't feel like I can do anything. I just want to be okay. I used to want to do so much. I was willing to sacrifice everything for what I believed in and for my dreams. Now I don't have any that I can remember.
Not to be too depressing, but that's about where I am right now. How are you guys?
I feel like things are so wrong in my life. Everything feels out of place. I'm so sad or numb all the time. My ambition is gone. I am just trying to not die. This time last year, I was doing so much and was learning and growing. Everything fell apart and I don't feel like I can do anything. I just want to be okay. I used to want to do so much. I was willing to sacrifice everything for what I believed in and for my dreams. Now I don't have any that I can remember.
Not to be too depressing, but that's about where I am right now. How are you guys?
