Venting Missed my chance

[Avril]

I wish I got to buy SN before the pandemic. Now I have to resort to hanging myself. But it doesn't matter anymore. I fucked my life up.

Waking up is the worst feeling ever. I have no friends. I work small jobs here and there to buy myself stuff but I don't feel happy. Money is not happiness. Sex is not happiness.

Another 50 or 60 years of this shit is not worth it. I will die alone.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing could never be worth it for me as well, I actually find it to be so horrific the thought of existing here for many more decades, I don't even want to think about that. But of course waking up is such an awful thing, I wish for no more days here and your feelings of never wanting to wake again certainly are understandable.