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Unending

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Nov 5, 2022
1,517


an overwhelming sense of agony, constricts the life from me
pain and emptiness are vultures clawing at my back
as emotions swim in pools of uncertainty
dreams whither away into blackness and dies
unwelcome feelings of sorrow and isolation
come bearing gifts to damage my mind
like a virus feasting on what is left of sanity
devouring anything that it can find
some feelings of love and hope still exist
buried deep under mountains of doubt
dormant they lie waiting to flourish
feelings of despair tighten their reign
where were you when i needed comfort?
sanctity from the outside world
filling my head with empty promises
pulling the wool over my eyes
the mask that is worn disguises the truth
contorts the features to appear at ease
now it is too torn and tattered to wear
the face underneath looks lonely and scared
a life of happiness unfulfilled
ambitions lost and not yet found
while the world moves around me
my existence remains stagnant and bleak
my gut clenches and my head begins to ache
at the thought of facing another fucking wasted day
scared to open my eyes for fear of what ill see
that which haunts and festers
staring right back at me
the cold hand of reality slaps my face
and brings tears to my eyes
panic and frustration
fills my heart with hopelessness
this life of misery is one that i wouldnt miss
why cant i be free of this undesired strife?
I can't awake from his never ending
nightmare they call life
I can't help but loathe
that which destroys me with no remorse
through lies and a false sense of hope
sinks me deeper everyday
everything that is grasped for
seems just out of reach
as waves of worthlessness, wash over me

This band holds a special place in my heart. One of the few that really remind me of the best parts of Dystopia. Arizona had a good crust scene.
 
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Specialist
Dec 10, 2021
355
Turn it up.

 
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not-2-b-the-answer

Archangel
Mar 23, 2018
8,410
Ripper-Embattled :heart::heart::heart::heart::heart::heart:







They've dragged you in
Taunted, haunted, demonized
You can't submit
When the blame is intertwined
And now your torn
Spirit worn & shattered
You feel the scorn
Of days spent embattled


We Stand As Proof
Bound together, Bound together
We Stand As Proof
Proof of all those embattled

Embattled, embattled

We Stand As Proof
Bound together
Risen in truth
Fearless under pressure
Honor the call
The call for desperate measure
Defend the soul
The soul from the posessor

We Stand As Proof
Bound together, Bound together
We Stand As Proof
Proof of all those embattled

Embattled, embattled

What you don't defend
Will be taken away
Without conscience, without remorse
To be risen in truth, to stand as proof
There's no other, there's no other way
What you don't defend
Will be taken away
Without conscience, without remorse

We stand as, we stand as proof
We Stand As Proof
Embattled
We Stand As Proof
Embattled
Embattled, embattled
 
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Astral Corpse
Mar 6, 2021
535
 
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Astral Corpse
Mar 6, 2021
535
 
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Rocinante

My name is Lucifer, please take my hand
Aug 26, 2022
1,378





 
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Member
May 31, 2019
59
 
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teenageriot
Jan 25, 2023
4
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Archangel
Mar 23, 2018
8,410
Prong-Breaking Point :heart::heart::heart::heart::heart::heart:





It's got to stop, It's got to end
People have had enough
The flat out lies, all untrue
What is said you cannot trust

They demand that you agree
With ideas you can't believe
Thoughts are banned, can't disagree
And there's no reprieve

What they teach, you won't learn
It's obscene
It's the breaking point
What they teach you won't read
It's obscene
It's the breaking point

The denial
It's the breaking point

It's going to end, It's going to stop
So many people have had enough
It's in decline, no moral view
With no dignity, It's overdue

What they teach, you won't learn
It's obscene
It's the breaking point
What they teach you won't read
It's obscene
It's the breaking point

The denial
It is final
The denial

The flat out lies
All untrue
You cannot trust
I've had enough

What they teach, you won't learn.
It's obscene
It's the breaking point
What they teach you won't read.
It's obscene
It's the breaking point

It's the breaking point
Breaking point
It's the breaking point

It's the breaking point
 
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Student
Jan 24, 2023
113
Cold by At The Gates

 
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Chaos at Feast

this degenerate little town
Jan 23, 2023
5
 
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Relic

Astral Corpse
Mar 6, 2021
535


 
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Archangel
Mar 23, 2018
8,410
Atreyu-Drowning :heart::heart::heart::heart::heart::heart:







Watching the walls in my head growing higher
Weight of my thoughts got me too tired to climb
I'm screaming for help as I suffer in silence
Knife at my neck, yeah I'm numb to the violence

'Cause I'm drowning
Head underwater, I'm alone
I'm drowning
Caught in the undertow (caught in the undertow)

Go!

The crowds in my head always blocked out the sun
I keep having nightmares of not waking up
Will I stay in here for a lifetime?
(Will I stay in here for a lifetime?)
Who is the one to get stuck in my head?

If I'm drowning
Head underwater, I'm alone
I'm drowning
Caught in the undertow
And it feels like I'm trying to find something
That was never even there
I'm drowning
Caught in the undertow (caught in the undertow)

Ooh
Ooh
Ooh
Ooh
Ooh
Ooh
Ooh
Ooh

I'm drowning
Head underwater, I'm alone
I'm drowning
Caught in the undertow

And it feels like I'm trying to find something
That was never even there
I'm drowning
Caught in the undertow
Caught in the undertow
I'm drowning in the undertow
 
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NumbItAll

expendable
May 20, 2018
1,064
Hmm couldn't choose between these two.



 
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UseItOrLoseIt

1O'8
Dec 4, 2020
2,214



The pioneers of mathcore, straight from the '90's.
Eh, I hate categorizations. They are unique, original and good musicians and that's why I love them.
 
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Mestre del Temps
May 6, 2022
1,338
AMARANTHE - 82nd All The Way
 
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not-2-b-the-answer

Archangel
Mar 23, 2018
8,410
Metallica-Screaming Suicide :heart::heart::heart::heart::heart::heart:











Welcome to this life
Born into the fight
Here to claim your dream
Look you in the eye
Patch the broken sky
Craving dopamine

Then my voice appears
Teaching you of fears
Are you good enough?
You don't recognize
Head is full of lies
You should just give up

Listen well, better listen well
Listen well, better listen well

Don't ever speak my name
Remember you're to blame
Keep me inside
Keep me inside
My name is suicide

Curse another day
Spirit locked away
Punish and deprive
Hate to be awake
Living a mistake
More dead than alive

Then a voice appears
Whisper in your ears
"You are good enough"
Throwing down a rope
A lifeline of hope
Never give you up

Listen well, better listen well
Listen well, better listen well

Don't ever speak my name
Remember you're to blame
Keep me inside
Keep me inside
My name is suicide

Terrified in sleepless nights
Caught in spotlight dead to rights
Isolate and fight your mind
Telling you you're left behind

My lying voice inside
Keeps drinking cyanide
And no more can you run
Into the sun

Terrified, sleepless nights
Caught in spotlight dead to rights
Isolate and fight your mind
Telling you you're left behind

And now you speak my name
You've given back the blame
Keep me deep inside
Don't you keep me inside
Screaming suicide

Now that I'm exposed inside
Shined a light on cyanide
I'm no longer needed here
Now you've faced your biggest fear
 
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Archangel
Mar 23, 2018
8,410
Avatar-The Dirt I'm Burried In :heart::heart::heart::heart::heart::heart:










Once upon a highway
Lost among the lights of neon tribes
I used to be a part of you
You used me and I used you too
You took me to the desert
Desecrated, desperate prey, oh yeah
You took me to the desert
I smoke the blackened tissue
High inside the church of the neon lights
I grease my limbs and enter you
The engine roars as engines do
The pressure we are under
Unmarked grave, the undead reign, oh yeah
The stars align
Behind my eyes
I'm going blind
I look up to the sky
But all I see is the dirt I'm buried in
Lonely lays the longing
I'm so far away from the world that buried me
An unknown destination
Tied up in the trunk of a stolen ride
I've never seen a sky so red
Just one more try before we're dead
The ashes in our nostrils
Ask for nothing, act like you're okay
The stars align
Behind my eyes
I'm going blind
I look up to the sky
But all I see is the dirt I'm buried in
Lonely lays the longing
I'm so far away from the world that buried me
I look up to the sky
But all I see is the dirt I'm buried in
Lonely lays the longing
I'm so far away from the world that buried me
A crushing wave
Upon the rocks
A shallow grave
On the coast
I'll wait
I look up to the sky
But all I see is the dirt I'm buried in
Lonely lays the longing
I'm so far away from the world that buried me
I look up to the sky
But all I see is the dirt I'm buried in
Lonely lays the longing
I'm so far away from the world that buried me
 
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Noise

Member
Mar 14, 2023
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Archangel
Mar 23, 2018
8,410
Atreyu-Watch Me Burn :heart::heart::heart::heart::heart::heart:









Come and watch me burn, burn, burn, oh
Watch me burn, burn, burn, oh
Watch me burn

Paint it all black
Take my life back
Buried it six feet in the past

Aim for my chest
Take deep breaths
Thought you had me beat but I still cheat death

Mix my blood with the ashes
Spark into a flame till it crashes down
You carve my name in the casket
Get the matches

If you set it all on fire
I'll be fighting till my last breath
Even when flames grow higher
I'll be fighting till I'm dead

So gimme what you got
I will never stop
Cover me in gasoline
Burn it down
I'll be fighting till my last breath
Come and watch me burn

Liar, liar, bite your tongue
Trying to tear me down with your smoke filled lungs
Watch them falling one by one
Your time has come

If you set it all on fire
I'll be fighting till my last breath
Even when flames grow higher
I'll be fighting till I'm dead

So gimme what you got
I will never stop
Cover me in gasoline
Burn it down
I'll be fighting till my last breath
Come and watch me burn

Watch me burn

If you set it all on fire
I'll be fighting till my last breath
Even when flames grow higher
I'll be fighting till I'm dead

So gimme what you got
I will never stop
Cover me in gasoline
Burn it down
I'll be fighting till my last breath

Come and watch me burn, burn, burn, oh
Watch me burn, burn, burn, oh
Come and watch me burn​
 
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not-2-b-the-answer

Archangel
Mar 23, 2018
8,410
Dusk Of Delusion-Shadow Workers :heart::heart::heart::heart::heart::heart:





 
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Grav

Wizard
Jul 26, 2020
654
Got to see Priest play Victim of Changes last year. He was able to hit the highs but looked like there was a bit of "brace for it". Still awesome and I was probably one few around me that knew what it was, ala "name that tune".
 
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not-2-b-the-answer

Archangel
Mar 23, 2018
8,410
Currents-Remember Me :heart::heart::heart::heart::heart::heart:









I can sense it, I've convinced myself that the world I love is gone
The blood is on the walls, the damage has been done
We carry the weight of selfless scars we silently crave
Upon a pedestal, we place our pain

One quandary for the counsel, too humble to brag
Cut the venom out, but the snake still buries its fangs
So when you take a look deep inside yourself, it swells and it stings
Like a chemical reaction burning your brain
In lies the weight of our regrets
Sharpen the knives that cut through our deepest strings of hate
Show me the love you've always wanted

All the love is gone, driven apart by what we all have seen
We're falling over ourselves
How do we mourn what's lost, what never will be?
Remember me, remember me as you loved me

Carry the weight of selfless scars we silently crave
Show me your hands and touch the stars with me
We're never just on one path, one road to travel, it seems
Our story's infinite, and we've just been pulling at the strings
And now there never will be

We have exercised the will of parasites
Witness the birth of innocence and our call to grow

All the love is gone, driven apart by what we all have seen
We're falling over ourselves
How do we mourn what's lost, what never will be?
Remember me, remember me as you loved me

Carry the weight of selfless scars we silently crave
Show me your hands and touch the stars with me
Falling walls like mountains form where I stand
You are my family, and I will not let hate be my last sin
 
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Archangel
Mar 23, 2018
8,410
Amity Affliction-I See Dead People :heart::heart::heart::heart::heart::heart:








I hear their voices in my head
I feel their sorrow in my chest
I've seen them pushed to the fucking edge
I see the ghosts of my friends
Yeah
I see the ghosts of my friends

If they can't make it out alive
Maybe I too am meant to die
I am waiting for Hell to take my soul
I am death, I am utter failure
And I can't make it out of here
Is this the end of everything?
I am, I am the noose, I am the knot
I am hate, I am your depression

I hear their voices in my head
I see the ghosts of my friends, oh

Yeah
I see the ghosts of my friends

They didn't make it out alive
And I'm just here waiting to die
I am the coward standing on the edge
Throw me out, I am utter failure
And I can't make it out of here
Is this the end of everything?
I am, I am the noose, I am the knot
I am hate, I am your depression

Dear God that don't exist
Fly me over oceans where my lover lives
Dear God that don't exist
Fly me over oceans where my lover lives
Dear God that don't exist
Fly me over oceans where my lover lives
Dear God that don't exist
I am death

Yeah
I am death
Dear God who don't exist
Fly me over oceans where my lover lives
Dear God who don't exist
I am death

I hear their voices in my head
I feel their sorrow in my chest
I've seen them pushed to the fucking edge
I see the ghosts of my friends

Yeah
I see the ghosts of my friends

Dear God that don't exist
Fly me over oceans where my lover lives
Dear God that don't exist
Fly me over oceans where my lover lives
 
mia.wallace

mia.wallace

Fell on black days
Feb 1, 2023
768
Danzig - Mother


Megadeth - Symphony of Destruction


Metallica - The Unforgiven
 
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Mar 23, 2018
8,410
Another Day Dawns-Bitter :heart::heart::heart::heart::heart::heart:



 
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Mar 23, 2018
8,410
Ghost-Jesus He Knows Me :heart::heart::heart::heart::heart::heart::heart::heart::heart::heart:











You see the face on the TV screen
coming at you every Sunday
see that face on the billboard
that man is me

On the cover of the magazine
there's no question why I'm smiling
you buy a piece of paradise
you buy a piece of me

I'll get you everything you wanted
I'll get you everything you need
don't need to believe in hereafter
just believe in me

Cos Jesus he knows me
and he knows I'm right
I've been talking to Jesus all my life
oh yes he knows me
and he knows I'm right
and he's been telling me
everything is alright

I believe in the family
with my ever loving wife beside me
but she don't know about my girlfriend
or the man I met last night

Do you believe in God
cos that's what I'm selling
and if you wanna get to heaven
I'll see you right

You won't even have to leave your house
or get outta your chair
you don't even have to touch that dial
cos I'm everywhere

And Jesus he knows me
and he knows I'm right
I've been talking to Jesus all my life
oh yes he knows me
and he knows I'm right
well he's been telling me
everything's gonna be alright

Won't find me practising what I'm preaching
won't find me making no sacrifice
but I can get you a pocketful of miracles
if you promise to be good, try to be nice
God will take good care of you
just do as I say, don't do as I do

I'm counting my blessings,
I've found true happiness
cos I'm getting richer, day by day
you can find me in the phone book,
just call my toll free number
you can do it anyway you want
just do it right away

There'll be no doubt in your mind
you'll believe everything I'm saying
if you wanna get closer to him
get on your knees and start paying

Cos Jesus he knows me
and he knows I'm right
I've been talking to Jesus all my life
oh yes he knows me
and he knows I'm right
well he's been telling me
everything's gonna be alright, alright

Jesus he knows me
Jesus he knows me, you know...
 
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Wizard
Jul 26, 2020
654
I really like Ghost. Reminds me a lot of BOC. They put on a great show.
 
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Unending

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Nov 5, 2022
1,517
Comparable to how the inside of my head feels generally


 
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