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[lostintheloop]

You're being so strong. I'm glad you can work well with your CPN. She sounds cool too. Helping you but not interfering too much. That's how all MH workers should be. I think we both have the evidence that NHS MH workers can be brilliant when you finally get to see them. It's the wait that does the harm. I hope you're not feeling the effects too much of eating that stuff. And hope you have as good a Sunday as you can. I'm always here for you but never feel obliged to answer and if I'm ever too much, just say. You're doing great and I'm still amazed how kind and thoughtful you still are xxxx

Please stop calling yourself pathetic and a coward. You're a fighter. You've been fighting through this all along, and I'm sure it has taken a toll but even through that your kindness and thoughtfulness shine through.

Thank you both so much . I don't deserve it though. If I was strong or a fighter i wouldn't be here, I'd be brave and I'd have already ended it. It is only my weakness that is keeping me here. The kindest thing I can do is to follow the instructions and ctb

 

[nir]

Thank you both so much . I don't deserve it though. If I was strong or a fighter i wouldn't be here, I'd be brave and I'd have already ended it. It is only my weakness that is keeping me here. The kindest thing I can do is to follow the instructions and ctb

I'm also really glad that you're still here. <3

 

[UnrulyNightmare]

How have you been the past few days?

 

[lostintheloop]

How have you been the past few days?

I'm alright thanks. Nothings really changed, different day, same shit … I'm tired of it but hanging on for some reason. Well actually been feeling a bit lower than usual this week, more tearful but unable to properly cry. I think that's probably just more hormonal than anything though (joys of being a woman !)
Thank you for asking how are you doing ?

 

[UnrulyNightmare]

I'm alright thanks. Nothings really changed, different day, same shit … I'm tired of it but hanging on for some reason. Well actually been feeling a bit lower than usual this week, more tearful but unable to properly cry. I think that's probably just more hormonal than anything though (joys of being a woman !)
Thank you for asking how are you doing ?

Ah yeah that absolutely sucks. Damn hormones..
Had an absolute nightmarish week but getting back to my feet
It's so tiring to be told yeah you feel like shit, but that's just longcovid. As if that diminishes my symptoms..
How did your appt go? You go on thursdays right?

 

[2messdup]

I'm alright thanks. Nothings really changed, different day, same shit … I'm tired of it but hanging on for some reason. Well actually been feeling a bit lower than usual this week, more tearful but unable to properly cry. I think that's probably just more hormonal than anything though (joys of being a woman !)
Thank you for asking how are you doing ?

So glad i'm done with those hormones! You feeling any better now? How did you get on with CPN? XXXX

 

[lostintheloop]

Ah yeah that absolutely sucks. Damn hormones..
Had an absolute nightmarish week but getting back to my feet
It's so tiring to be told yeah you feel like shit, but that's just longcovid. As if that diminishes my symptoms..

I'm sorry that sounds so frustrating and hopeless feeling It's horrible how little help and treatment there is for chronic illnesses

How did your appt go? You go on thursdays right?

So glad i'm done with those hormones! You feeling any better now? How did you get on with CPN? XXXX

Thank you both so much . I replied on other thread so quoted below. The appt. days was today as the day varies xx

Thank you all so much i really do appreciate all the support xx
I'm doing ok. I did see CPN today, she mistyped my email so I didn't get questions in advance. Which was fine as wasn't any hard ones but did mean i didn't send anything about my worries about the SH. Not that it matters .
It went ok, we focused on drawing stress bucket. I should've probably told her how the week has really been as she won't realise how close I am to the edge / how close to serious harm or ctb. But I can't tell her .

 

[2messdup]

I'm sorry that sounds so frustrating and hopeless feeling It's horrible how little help and treatment there is for chronic illnesses



Thank you both so much . I replied on other thread so quoted below. The appt. days was today as the day varies xx

Your poor stress bucket has been right at the top for a long time now :-( . I hope she realised at least some of your distress, even if she didn't realise the full extent. I'm glad you have her in rl to talk to though. Do you get "homework" to do? (or continuation on the journey of exploration as one fluffy therapist called it lol). How's your stomach? I hope it's settled down a bit. I'm always so glad to see you've been on here. xxxx

 

[lostintheloop]

Your poor stress bucket has been right at the top for a long time now :-( . I hope she realised at least some of your distress, even if she didn't realise the full extent. I'm glad you have her in rl to talk to though. Do you get "homework" to do? (or continuation on the journey of exploration as one fluffy therapist called it lol). How's your stomach? I hope it's settled down a bit. I'm always so glad to see you've been on here. xxxx

I felt pathetic when we were filling it in as not much in it and all stupid little things, nothing serious. I don't get homework usually just the questions beforehand
(haha i love that, amazing how some therapists say so little with so many words)
My stomach is fine now thanks, not even sure if it was related to the SH
Thank you x i'm so grateful for you and always glad to see you on here too x
How has your day been ?

 

[2messdup]

I felt pathetic when we were filling it in as not much in it and all stupid little things, nothing serious. I don't get homework usually just the questions beforehand
(haha i love that, amazing how some therapists say so little with so many words)
My stomach is fine now thanks, not even sure if it was related to the SH
Thank you x i'm so grateful for you and always glad to see you on here too x
How has your day been ?

Haha I've had to fill in a stress bucket thing before and it felt very weird because we often don't think about those things. But I found the more I put on there the more things I realised I was having to deal with. So glad your stomach feels better. Its amazing what are bodies can cope with but it must have been a worry for you all the same. My day has been ok thank you. I'm looking forward to tomorrow because I'm going to the Saturday market at one of the bigger local towns. Love and hugs xxxx

 

[UnrulyNightmare]

I'm sorry that sounds so frustrating and hopeless feeling It's horrible how little help and treatment there is for chronic illnesses

Yeah.. scans, bloodwork, ecg's. Nothing besides my symptoms to be found. And back home sick and alone it is..
I miss your new threads now I'm not able to be on here as much. Thanks for letting me know I like to follow along and support wherever I can