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[wren-briar]

@timetodie24

Your appointment with your CPN is today, right?

How are you doing, both physically and with the urges and commands?

 

[SVEN]

Truly hope you kept your appointment, unmet friend, and they're taking you seriously. Please try and be kinder to yourself. You really don't need to vex yourself about your being alive causing danger to us, we're fine. We care about you and hope things improve in your life.

 

[timetodie24]

@timetodie24

Your appointment with your CPN is today, right?

How are you doing, both physically and with the urges and commands?

It was . I was honest with her . I was embarrassed but she was understanding. She called dr for advice about what I'd already swallowed. I then regretted being honest as the dr said mostly like will be no issues but still wanted me to go to a&e as a precaution. CPN tried to encourage me to go but I refused and we came to compromise that I will go to a&e if I start experiencing pain/any symptoms from it . As feeling fine physically atm, no issues. Still getting urges but not too many voices atm.
Thank you for asking xx

Truly hope you kept your appointment, unmet friend, and they're taking you seriously. Please try and be kinder to yourself. You really don't need to vex yourself about your being alive causing danger to us, we're fine. We care about you and hope things improve in your life.

i did thank you . Thank you for your kindness. We started looking at some info on voices and it was helpful to relate to others' experiences.

 

[wren-briar]

I'm so glad to hear that you're feeling okay physically, had a good appointment with your CPN, and finding ways to address your voices and urges!

When do you see your CPN again?

Do you have any "homework" that will help you keep making progress, even if it's just itty-bitty steps each day, until you next see her?

 

[NoPoint2Life]

I think it sounds like your CPN handled it great
I am glad you are doing a bit better at least for now.

 

[timetodie24]

I'm so glad to hear that you're feeling okay physically, had a good appointment with your CPN, and finding ways to address your voices and urges!

When do you see your CPN again?

Do you have any "homework" that will help you keep making progress, even if it's just itty-bitty steps each day, until you next see her?

I see her next week, on friday.
Not any homework. Still stage of understanding things rather than looking ar ways of coping atm

 

[opheliaoveragain]

I see her next week, on friday.
Not any homework. Still stage of understanding things rather than looking ar ways of coping atm

that makes sense, just take the coming days moment by moment. we're here for you.

so proud of you for continuing to try even though a lot of us would agree that it's in no way easy. I keep you in my thoughts. i'm hoping they continue to do good by you this time round. hang in there.

 

[timetodie24]

that makes sense, just take the coming days moment by moment. we're here for you.

so proud of you for continuing to try even though a lot of us would agree that it's in no way easy. I keep you in my thoughts. i'm hoping they continue to do good by you this time round. hang in there.

Thank you so much






Threat of a&e didn't stop me for long as yet again swallowed something i shouldn't . Nothing harmful though so doesn't make much difference. Just same thing of getting medical attention if get any pain.
Can't sleep as don't want to face another day. So close to just giving into them
We all know that's best

 

[timetodie24]

I really can't do this . It's getting worse. And I'm making world worse by staying. I need to go desperately asap.

 

[NoPoint2Life]

I was so hopeful after you met with your CPN.
Do you still think you "need" to go but don't actually want to go? Don't make any rash decisions just because you're having a bad day.

 

[timetodie24]

I was so hopeful after you met with your CPN.
Do you still think you "need" to go but don't actually want to go? Don't make any rash decisions just because you're having a bad day.

Both need and want.
The system predicted a couple of world events recently, terrible things, proving its power. People have already died because of me and many more will. I have to stop that.
And I'm tired of waking up everyday with dread, dragging myself through. And the way things are heading i'd probably accidentally kill or seriously injure myself through sh anyway. Better to get job done properly in 1 go then go out that way.

 

[SVEN]

I really can't do this . It's getting worse. And I'm making world worse by staying. I need to go desperately asap.

You know we are on your side, you have endured so much, so well. I have no words except you are kinda special to many on here.

 

[Whale_bones]

I don't have the words either, just echoing @SVEN 's statement, you are special to many and I'm sending you my little cheery sunflower to put a moment of brightness in your day

 

[alltoomuch2]

I'm so sorry ttd24. I've been so wrapped up in my own minor issues I haven't been keeping up, was avoiding the SD section and hoped you were feeling better. I'm medically trained (don't want to say too much on the open SD thread) and even tiny little things will cause a perforation or blockage in your gi system. They'll clump together until they're a big spiky mass that has to be removed or they will perforate and you'll be in hospital. I know you're tired and I know you're a warrior but please fight the urge to eat these things even harder. Would it help to eat ice cubes or something instead?
I'm glad you had a good session with the CPN. They are the most awesome people aren't they? I'm gonna be watching the threads again now. I"m here for you, just as you are for me. Massive hugs to you my lovely kind strong friend. xxxxx

 

[opheliaoveragain]

morning from the gulf coast TTD. I know you're feeling a fuck ton of things right now. I respect your need and want to go, but i'm maybe stupidly holding out hope that this can get figured out. we all want to see you better than right now. obviously expecting any of us to fully get better is ridiculous and this wonderful place wouldn't exist otherwise.

please be careful with swallowing things. do you know if you've successfully passed anything you've swallowed? not to be gross, but if things aren't passing through, there's more concern bc that alone is very unlikely to kill. hugs hugs hugs