Mentally and physically disabled

[gomenasai]

I am physically and mentally disabled which was brought on me by my CLOSEST family members who are reponsible for my medical condition that made my life a living hell when I was just 23. I had many hopes and dreams, I've been fighting for so long but now it's time to go.

Nothing has improved over the many ensuing years. Now my only fear is to fail at ctb.

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds really awful what you have had to endure, life is just so cruel. I understand having the fear of failing ctb, it's what holds me back from attempting and to me it's so horrifying how methods can potentially go wrong. I wish you freedom from all suffering.

 

[lofticries]

I'm sorry to hear that. I can't imagine the pain and anger you must be feeling.

I wish ctb was as simple as flipping a switch. If it was I'd be gone a long time ago.