it really is hard in a way, i have people ill miss (but they wont be coming back in my life soon anyway), i kept thinking about people and everytime i hear about future plans and all that i really just smile and do my best to show that im fine. i think about the cost of my funeral and the fact that i dont even have the money to pay my family that, but atleast that'll be their last expense. i think about the people i may impact but even so, i had enough already. life has just been hell for me.
it feels like this is the only time i get to choose something in my life.
i wish the lives ive ruined deem me as a passable christmas gift.
it feels like this is the only time i get to choose something in my life.
i wish the lives ive ruined deem me as a passable christmas gift.
