Maynoname’s Official Goodbye Thread/Experience Description (SN, Successful)

[lifeisactualtorture]

Thank you for sharing for us and for them. Rest in peace brave soul!

 

[etchings]

Hey all,

I was honored to have this person's companionship, friendship, and ultimate trust in what was the biggest moments. Before I go forward, this is a request to please respect this thread, please do not try to source within it, please do not derail it. I welcome any questions that do not relate to sourcing. Please treat this thread as if it was written by the user. They were beautiful and kind, and fucking hilarious. I like to think we brought each other joy in their last month on this plain. They deserve your well wishes.


To be clear, this was October 2nd, 11pm their time (first SN cup), in the early evening for me. I stayed on the call until I was sure, and there was no voices in the background, (IE outside their apartment) no nothing, and they have not shown back up, therefore I am assuming success. I know that if they survived I would have heard by now. The source was DMC (I was asked to include this as there have been talks about purity concerns and we partially did this to provide information regarding that, in real time. Further clarification, this user did not run it on a panel test beforehand)

Protocol here:

"11 AM : last meal : a 100g natural yogurt and 75g brownie
After that only clear water and 1 red fruit herbal tea
6 PM : I stop drinking
9:20 PM : 1000 mg of paracetamol
10:20 PM : 3x10 mg of meto
11 PM : 25 g or SN from DMC in 50ml water
I drink a second cup if I vomit"

*Note that NO BENZO was taken. See response down thread.

Timed info here, in my time:
(Any questions, just ask)

15:20: Took Meto
15:37: peed after Meto
15:41: "sad but calm"
15:50: Mixing SN to dissolve
15:57: We are both emotional, but calm.
16:00: First Cup SN
16:01: "Really salty"
16:01: Rinsed mouth
16:02: Laid down
16:05: Last clear words, "My heart" (they did not sound scared, likely describing tachycardia)
16:06: Quiet
16:07: — Nothing of note
16:08: — Nothing of note
16:09: Threw up (x 3 ?) / some background noise, some groaning.
16:10: Post puke noises, nothing more of note.
16:11: Coughing, possibly more puking
16:12: Moaning, I hear the reaction after drinking the 2nd cup.
16:13: Light groaning, heavy breath sounds
16:14: Quieter breath sounds
16:15: Hoarse breath sounds, grunt-like breath, possibly nearing unconsciousness.
16:16: Fast breath
16:17: Quieter and quieter breath now, much slower.
16:18: —Nothing of note
16:19: Quiet.
16:20: Quiet.
16:21: Small background noise, no more painful breathing.
16:22: Liquid-like breath sounds, much slower breath
16:23: Slower breath sounds
16:24: Small background noise.
16:25: Quiet, VERY slow breath
16:26: — Nothing of note
16:27: I speak my last words, telling them I love them, to let go.
16:28: Quiet, no more breath sounds evident.
16:29: Quiet.
16:30-17:20 Silence.

End call.


We both have and had the hope that this can somehow help educate others. Discussion is welcome, but please do not use this thread to source, please be respectful.

Thank you all. I really value this community, to those who have reached out, you know who you are

I miss and love you, M. It's not goodbye, it's see you later<3 Thank you for trusting me to have your back.

"16:30-17:20" you stayed with them. I hope someone will do this for me when it comes time. I hope their soul is in eternal peace now. Thank you for sharing.

 

[opheliaoveragain]

"16:30-17:20" you stayed with them. I hope someone will do this for me when it comes time. I hope their soul is in eternal peace now. Thank you for sharing.

much love to you. feel free to reach out to me if you'd like, im open to talking.

I get slightly emotional whenever this post gets bumped.

I love you M. i'm thinking of you always, angel.

 

[VoidBlessed]

Thank you for the detailed synopsis but even more thank you for being there for your friend. Almost all of us die alone and I have always wished for a friend to be there with me, it's wonderful you did that for someone else. I wish everyone could be that accepting and compassionate.

 

[Tig]

Suffering no more, I'm sorry about your Friend.
Your time-line and details are greatly appreciated, the method works, that will save somebody else from the pain suffering this world brings, when the time is right for them.

 

[DOHARDTHINGS24]

much love to you. feel free to reach out to me if you'd like, im open to talking.

I get slightly emotional whenever this post gets bumped.

I love you M. i'm thinking of you always, angel.

I never remember what your time frame is compared to mine - I definitely was super surprised to see a bump on this thread on what is Christmas Day to me. I just logged on after making @Plato'sCaveDweller the most ridiculous present - sitting on the floor, laughing my butt off, for a joke they'll never get. It sounds sad, but isn't. We cling to what we need to, to get by, whether that's another day here or a permanent exit. I am forever changed by SaSu & P

 

[opheliaoveragain]

I never remember what your time frame is compared to mine - I definitely was super surprised to see a bump on this thread on what is Christmas Day to me. I just logged on after making @Plato'sCaveDweller the most ridiculous present - sitting on the floor, laughing my butt off, for a joke they'll never get. It sounds sad, but isn't. We cling to what we need to, to get by, whether that's another day here or a permanent exit. I am forever changed by SaSu & P

I don't see it as sad. I think that's beautiful. I'm sure it's personal to you but if you'd like to share feel free to dm me, sweet friend. I hope you know i'm here for you. I was thinking a lot about P and Joe and May today. everyone's replies etc has made me feel a wee bit better, I know i'm not alone.

thankful for each one of you, esp the homies, you know who you are.

 

[avoid_slow_death]

This hit very close to home for very personal reasons. All I want to say is I hope their passing was with minimal discomfort and may they have found that peace and balance the obviously sought. Also, you are truly compassionate to do this for them. It will definitely stick with you for a long time. You'll think about it often. Hope you're holding up yourself. Sending love and peace your way you special soul.

 

[opheliaoveragain]

This hit very close to home for very personal reasons. All I want to say is I hope their passing was with minimal discomfort and may they have found that peace and balance the obviously sought. Also, you are truly compassionate to do this for them. It will definitely stick with you for a long time. You'll think about it often. Hope you're holding up yourself. Sending love and peace your way you special soul.

truly thank you. I know that a have the capacity to be there when I connect with someone. I think about them everyday. I hope we'll all be sitting together on the bus (I mostly believe in nothing after but appreciate this turn of phrase)

much love to you. I genuinely appreciate your words.

 

[DOHARDTHINGS24]

I don't see it as sad. I think that's beautiful. I'm sure it's personal to you but if you'd like to share feel free to dm me, sweet friend. I hope you know i'm here for you. I was thinking a lot about P and Joe and May today. everyone's replies etc has made me feel a wee bit better, I know i'm not alone.

thankful for each one of you, esp the homies, you know who you are.

Sent. But you're gonna think it's batshit crazy. Because it is. And that's OK.
I've been thinking about these lot all day too - the weird SaSu Alice in wonderland way of believing impossible things - I'm happy they didn't have to see a Christmas & New Year they didn't want but struggling to understand how I can be happy for them. I never know how to feel about a bump as well - the more they're remembered, the better. The more their documentation can help others, the better. But it hits hard & I get scared of being disrespectful or others derailing as well. Ultimately, bumps are the goal. It's just the suckers left behind with their human egos that get burned. Not a dig at you. Just something I can imagine P & Joe saying, because of who they were / are. Big opinions . Much love.

 

[emptinessdancing]

Thank you to everyone who posted here <3 Tomorrow will be one week, it's hard to believe, but they were brave as fuck.

I am just coming across this. 13 weeks later. I hope to have someone like you by my side, who helps me feel brave as fuck-- in one of the most well-thought out, considerate, but no less scariest, yet most-assured- decisions of my life. You are a true divine rock. I hope you are at peace with wherever you are in your journey. Much love to you.

 

[cali22♡]

Rest in peace and i hope everything goes well

Take care
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