Venting maybe strarve myself?

[MapleS]

I... don't know why I'm typing it
I just-
I'm was fighting and am fighting for my life but I no longer see the piont. Like the best future zi imagine is constant fight and being dissociated
I'm battling being core of the system. core who does not feel emotions
and I know furure is very complicayed. a battle. And will not provide what I wanted and once experienced

But the ghardships make me wanna fight for some reason. make me wanna NOT kill myself.
So I thought bmaybe starve myself. maybe die by the nature. A passive sucide

Do you know any passive methonds apart from starvation?


*Under this thread you have the right to tell me to live or say good things about living and life if you wish

 

[Galam]

Hi. It is not recommended to starve, I tried it too and it will get hard esp. without pain killers. The body survives too long with full counscousness if you are younger and mostly healthy. The older people who are ill have no thirst and hunger as much as younger healthy people that's why it is easier for them to starve but they also have maybe access to morphin.

In my case I try out spironolacton 25mg and minoxidil 2.5mg it is against my hairloss but both drugs can trigger cardiac arrest because of the potassium.

I could suffer already from defect kidneys and liver, because my body odor stinks like urine and it was getting worse. I wish I could just get a cardiac arrest in my deep sleep and that was it but it maybe will not work. Who knows. I try to get many bananas with vegan ice and some chanterelles with high potassium. Not the worst last meal imo but I need money to buy this. They cut me off from welfare in my country.