Discussion Maybe feeling better?

[CrazyDiamond04]

It's not really a feeling of happiness; I feel more ambivalent than anything else. I don't feel that I've been thinking of suicide as much as of recent. I don't really know if I feel "better" but I think I do feel different. Maybe this is just a fluke, who knows? I figured this fit best for the recovery section.

 

[Tefnu]

It's the gradual climb, I think.

When I was crawling out of my pit, I would get days at a time where I realized I wasn't sad, wasn't happy, was just fine. And then as this progressed, it became a huge relief to be free of that weight that had been crushing me most my life. Now, I get giddy going outside and smelling the frost in the air, and I can say with certainty that I am happy. It's not like there aren't relapses, I don't think happiness is meant to be a permanent state, but it's not meant to be rare either.

I hope you experience something similar, and I'm happy that you're at least feeling 'okay' for the time being. Best

 

[CrazyDiamond04]

It's the gradual climb, I think.

When I was crawling out of my pit, I would get days at a time where I realized I wasn't sad, wasn't happy, was just fine. And then as this progressed, it became a huge relief to be free of that weight that had been crushing me most my life. Now, I get giddy going outside and smelling the frost in the air, and I can say with certainty that I am happy. It's not like there aren't relapses, I don't think happiness is meant to be a permanent state, but it's not meant to be rare either.

I hope you experience something similar, and I'm happy that you're at least feeling 'okay' for the time being. Best

Yeah, I'm hoping that's the case. I don't know why but I have a small feeling that things might get better. No clue why I feel this way but the feeling is there I suppose. Thank you for your kindness.