Venting I only feel better in the evening

[littlebiird]

I'm feeling. Better. I guess.
But by time I finally start to feel like doing anything, it's already 7pm.
I've wanted to go to Walmart for the past 2 weeks. Just haven't had the energy. Or felt I was worthy.
By time I actually feel like I can leave the house, it'll be 2am. And everything is closed. Because nothing is 24hr anymore.
I've tried to pick up some games. But just put them back down because nothing is fun. I have no interest in any of my hobbies.
Retail therapy is of interest, but we are broke and again, whole "not worthy" thing, so it's just window shopping online.

I so desperately need to get out of the house but I just don't have a reason to. I don't feel up to it during the acceptable human hours. And when I finally start to feel more human it's too late and things are closing up.

It doesn't matter that I woke up at 9am today instead of noon. It's 9:30pm and I'm just now feeling like I could maybe leave the house for the day. And now it's too late.

I'm tired of being tired.

 

[Mr.Ruben]

May I recommend something littlebiird?
I believe art may give you a different look with things.

 

[littlebiird]

May I recommend something littlebiird?
I believe art may give you a different look with things.

I've tried. I'm an artist by nature.
I'll pick up something and just can't get into it. I haven't been able to paint or draw in a good year. Still that way now. Tried to cross stitch earlier and after finally wrangling my project into the hoop I was just. Done.
Even music doesn't hit the same. I've opened Spotify 3 times in the last 1.5 months. I'm one of those people who typically has music playing 24/7.

Everything just feels grey :(

 

[bagel12]

I'm feeling. Better. I guess.
But by time I finally start to feel like doing anything, it's already 7pm.
I've wanted to go to Walmart for the past 2 weeks. Just haven't had the energy. Or felt I was worthy.
By time I actually feel like I can leave the house, it'll be 2am. And everything is closed. Because nothing is 24hr anymore.
I've tried to pick up some games. But just put them back down because nothing is fun. I have no interest in any of my hobbies.
Retail therapy is of interest, but we are broke and again, whole "not worthy" thing, so it's just window shopping online.

I so desperately need to get out of the house but I just don't have a reason to. I don't feel up to it during the acceptable human hours. And when I finally start to feel more human it's too late and things are closing up.

It doesn't matter that I woke up at 9am today instead of noon. It's 9:30pm and I'm just now feeling like I could maybe leave the house for the day. And now it's too late.

I'm tired of being tired.

i feel the same way, i feel like life has lost its color, and it's an immense ordeal just to get out of bed. i no longer enjoy my hobbies or anything really, everything feels like a chore. i wish i had a solution, but i just want to say that you're not alone in feeling this way.

i am coming to terms with the fact that i naturally feel best in the evening, even though the rest of society is closing up by that time of day. i'm lucky to live in an area that has streetlamps and isn't too sketchy at night. i don't know if this is an option for you, but i started going on walks at night and it's been really nice. there's some light pollution, but i can still see the stars, so i downloaded an app to help me identify the constellations. it's been a decent mood booster, it gets me out of my head. if it's not safe at night in your area, just opening the windows and looking at the stars still helps me. when i can get myself out of the house during the day, i like going to a park and just sitting quietly. it's nice to be in nature, and i don't really have to interact with others.

one day i'll muster up the energy to get proper mental health help, but that day isn't today.

anyway, i'm sorry you're going through this. i hope things get better soon