Venting Make reasons for problems that aren't yours

[Oeoe3]

There isn't really any way out now is there? I thought that maybe seeking for help for once wouldn't be so bad, yet I've proven wrong in the worst way possible. I've spoken to a family member about this, one that I truly trust.

Of course, it didn't work out the way I thought it would and I had to listen to somebody make solutions for problems that weren't even theirs. I was alright with it at first, even though it didn't work I appreciated the effort. It was only when they started saying that the reasons for my attempts and grim way of thinking was because of some books I purchased. Do people just love to assume that much? No, it wasn't because of those books, I've been like this before I even discovered them.

It's funny, because this might just be the only thing people will ever think when I finally die. They'll all make reasons for the death that wasn't even theirs and assume it was because I've influenced I've turned out like this. I don't even know if I should feel sad, frustrated, or outright amused at the sheer audacity. All because of some books? Sorry I have hobbies.

 

[Edistrying]

I think that some people never gonna really understand what it fells like to be a suicide person, I used to blame them but now i like to think that its not their foul. its like when a friend came to me to explain something great in their life that i don't know , in the moment I say a phrase without a sence but its only because i dont know that else to say... oh well maybe it's a excuse in my mind but it works for me hehe. Now I prefer to ask for help for some especialist in the area & even you ll have to search to many times to find the right one that really could help you.

 

[Oeoe3]

I think that some people never gonna really understand what it fells like to be a suicide person, I used to blame them but now i like to think that its not their foul. its like when a friend came to me to explain something great in their life that i don't know , in the moment I say a phrase without a sence but its only because i dont know that else to say... oh well maybe it's a excuse in my mind but it works for me hehe. Now I prefer to ask for help for some especialist in the area & even you ll have to search to many times to find the right one that really could help you.

I get you. Sometimes I wonder why I even bother to think that there would be people out there who could actually understand when I already know there wouldn't be.