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NotUrDream

NotUrDream

You're holding your gun upside down
May 21, 2026
49
i can relate a lot… it's so accurate, unfortunately it's just the reality

i feel you, sometimes I feel that people of our parents' generation subconsciously have an extreme optimism about life, so they might unintentionally overlook certain realities. I've asked about it before, but never really got an answer
unfortunately some people treat others like mere animals or insignificant things, who think a single smile or phrase cannot be a mask for pain, or who assume you will simply be fine based solely on their own intuition and way of thinking
in an hyper-individualized society like this one, I highly doubt people genuinely care if you die or not…………

if they have a life insurance policy on you that they can for sure cash out on, they really have no incentive to give a fuck because your death will be their payday.
I never thought about it that way before, it made me see and think about people in a different way i never did before, Like, the people who intentionally hurt me.
 
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Le temps perdu

existential torture
Dec 10, 2025
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unfortunately some people treat others like mere animals or insignificant things, who think a single smile or phrase cannot be a mask for pain, or who assume you will simply be fine based solely on their own intuition and way of thinking
you deserve to be cared for and treated well. I hope one day you'll meet someone who truly understands you and empathizes with you
sometimes people really take it for granted that their own thoughts and intuitions are this way, and that others must be the same…
 
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NotUrDream

You're holding your gun upside down
May 21, 2026
49
you deserve to be cared for and treated well. I hope one day you'll meet someone who truly understands you and empathizes with you
sometimes people really take it for granted that their own thoughts and intuitions are this way, and that others must be the same…
We all deserve to be treated well, with care and respect, none of us deserves so much suffering, especially if we have to suffer alone. No one naturally chooses suffering, yet suffering is something that comes entirely naturally
And also, this was the biggest thread I've ever had in all the time I've been on this forum. I really appreciate y'all for that : )
 
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time2gosoon

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Jul 12, 2026
18
do you think people would care if you CTB? or do you feel upset knowing they wouldnt? because im really kinda upset recently because i just found out that people actually disgust me and wouldnt care if i died, people i really thought that cared about me, and kinda makes me sad that people see me like a disgusting weirdo bad human being even though I've never done anything wrong or even thought about doing anything wrong to those people.
I don't care if anyone is bothered.
I'll be dead, I'll have no further impact on anyone else's life.
That's what I want.
 
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lifesnotfair

lifesnotfair

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May 9, 2026
27
I never liked attention. I hope they can just grieve me and move on.
 

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