Heyhey
I'm 20M from central europe.
I'm mostly into music and art stuff in general. I like reading (mostly classics), I collect vinyls, and I play piano & guitar (not very good at either tho hahsha).
One of the most important things to me is music, and my music taste is quite broad (i listen to anything from metal to indie/alternative/folk, some pop aswell but mostly alternative pop, I'm not rlly into standard pop music). My favourite genres atm are doom metal/metal in general, southern gothic, alternative rock, dark ambient music, and occasionally some rap stuff (lil peep/juice wrld/$uicideboy$).
Also, I don't care about what gender/sexuality/anything someone is/has, I accept everyone for who they are. (I'm very much left leaning)
I really like cats. I've got 2 cats myself. I like animals in general tho, like deer, wolves, dogs, ravens, and more.
I technically like making art, tho I've been lacking motivation to do so for quite some time. My favourite way of expressing myself artistically is poetry. I've been a writer for many years, but again, lately I haven't really been doing that either.
Thats about all thats interesting about me hahsha. Maybe I should also mention that I am currently not actively planning to CTB, though i have had a bunch of attempts in the past and have struggled with mental health issues & selfharm for a decade now, and still have really strong suicidal ideation. I just find the idea of having a way out if i need one very comforting. I have a girlfriend that I love very dearly, and a few other loved ones that care about me, so I don't want to hurt them by CTB, atleast not as of right now. But I think about it a lot, especially the past weeks/months it's been one of the main things on my mind. I also (obviously) dont judge or try to talk ppl out of CTB, duh. I fully understand the feeling of wanting to just find peace and if CTB is the only way for someone then I won't try to change their minds.
Anyway, I'd really like to find some friends on here as the vast majority of people irl dont know at all how bad im doing mentally, and I'd just like to have a few people that i can be myself with without having to mask all of that, and that I can talk to about this kind of stuff without having them worry or something, yk?
If any of that sounds like someone you'd like to be friends with I'd be happy to talk to ya :]
Edit: I should also mention that I'm sometimes not the best at being super active/replying very quick, depending on whats going on in my life. Just putting that out there, I wouldn't want to end up upsetting anyone by potentially taking a bit to respond :)