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siphon_hyphen

siphon_hyphen

taking advantage of what I can!
Jan 3, 2026
36
Hello! I'm an 18 year old queer girl torn between life and death trying to figure stuff out.

I don't care what gender you are, sexuality, or anything like that, so long as you understand that I would never ever want anything beyond platonic ❤️

My main interests are the following -
- Hollow Knight
- Phighting
- Undertale / Deltarune
- Little Goody Two Shoes (the game!)
- Inscryption
- Bugs!!! Insects in general!

But I'd be totally down to talk even if you don't care for any of that. I'm just some lonely loser who wants friends LOL but um. Yeah!!! I'm from the USA, if that matters ... but! yeah!
 
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ForMeanGhosts

ForMeanGhosts

I Pray To Vengeful Canaries
Jun 23, 2026
8
23M from Romania.
I'm mostly into older-school music, bleak/atmospheric games, weird anime, and existential films/shows. I used to play FPS semi-competitively before full-time work; nowadays I mostly listen to music, play gachas occasionally and look for new media.

Some favorites:

Music: Lifover, Have a Nice Life, GY!BE, Duster, Type O Negative, Alice in Chains, Swirlies
Games: arena shooters, boomer shooters, Nier, SH 2, BioShock, Pathologic 2, Bag of Milk, Stars Die
Film/shows: Texhnolyze, Haibane Renmei, True Detective, Welcome to the NHK, Ergo Proxy, Angels Egg, Sunset Limited, Man Who Sleeps


I deal with chronic anhedonia, so I'm not the most hyper-social person, but I'd like to talk to people who resonate with this kind of stuff rather than just consume it aesthetically. Feel free to DM.
 
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kkkctb

kkkctb

Kkkctb
Sep 19, 2023
26
Yooo
I am zero 25M 🖤 year old hacker ( I have 7 years of experience in this field professionally) from India
I am also looking for a friend to talk to I don't have anyone to talk so if your interested we can be friends. I know a lot about hacking and coding . I love watching anime like Romcom or aot and listen to music like rap hip hop or emo rap and phunk and rock and techno .

I spend all my time watching YouTube and Instagram

I lack communication skills I guess maybe that's why I don't have many friend

Feel free to dm me
 
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iwanttodie019

Arcanist
May 4, 2025
470
f20 from california, been feeling lonely recently since ive been away from most of my ppl for summer classes. a little about me, i really love cats (my apartment manager doesnt allow pets 😡) my music taste consists of bedroom pop, indie, electronic, and underground rap. i also like to play roblox from time to time. looking for anyone to talk to about anything really. big plus if ur also from cali!
can we be friends?
 
BloodStainedAntlers

BloodStainedAntlers

sic labitur aetas
Aug 2, 2026
24
Heyhey
I'm 20M from central europe.
I'm mostly into music and art stuff in general. I like reading (mostly classics), I collect vinyls, and I play piano & guitar (not very good at either tho hahsha).

One of the most important things to me is music, and my music taste is quite broad (i listen to anything from metal to indie/alternative/folk, some pop aswell but mostly alternative pop, I'm not rlly into standard pop music). My favourite genres atm are doom metal/metal in general, southern gothic, alternative rock, dark ambient music, and occasionally some rap stuff (lil peep/juice wrld/$uicideboy$).

Also, I don't care about what gender/sexuality/anything someone is/has, I accept everyone for who they are. (I'm very much left leaning)
I really like cats. I've got 2 cats myself. I like animals in general tho, like deer, wolves, dogs, ravens, and more.

I technically like making art, tho I've been lacking motivation to do so for quite some time. My favourite way of expressing myself artistically is poetry. I've been a writer for many years, but again, lately I haven't really been doing that either.

Thats about all thats interesting about me hahsha. Maybe I should also mention that I am currently not actively planning to CTB, though i have had a bunch of attempts in the past and have struggled with mental health issues & selfharm for a decade now, and still have really strong suicidal ideation. I just find the idea of having a way out if i need one very comforting. I have a girlfriend that I love very dearly, and a few other loved ones that care about me, so I don't want to hurt them by CTB, atleast not as of right now. But I think about it a lot, especially the past weeks/months it's been one of the main things on my mind. I also (obviously) dont judge or try to talk ppl out of CTB, duh. I fully understand the feeling of wanting to just find peace and if CTB is the only way for someone then I won't try to change their minds.

Anyway, I'd really like to find some friends on here as the vast majority of people irl dont know at all how bad im doing mentally, and I'd just like to have a few people that i can be myself with without having to mask all of that, and that I can talk to about this kind of stuff without having them worry or something, yk?

If any of that sounds like someone you'd like to be friends with I'd be happy to talk to ya :]

Edit: I should also mention that I'm sometimes not the best at being super active/replying very quick, depending on whats going on in my life. Just putting that out there, I wouldn't want to end up upsetting anyone by potentially taking a bit to respond :)
 
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p.punk!

p.punk!

may you never forget me • he/him
Aug 5, 2026
17
yoo! im 18 male from the philippines. i love the alternative/goth/hardcore/punk scene.
i am not chronically online.
i am a piercer and has a lot of piercing so people calling me weird here in the ph but i am not.
i love writing poet and drawing.
in my free time i love skateboarding and i am pretty good at it [2 years of skating]

i wanna have friends before i ctb this december. hoping to have some friends across the globe here! just dm me i dont mind at all 🖤
 
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MongolianCarlsJr

MongolianCarlsJr

Glory to the Hydro Archon
May 22, 2025
10
I'm 27M from ID.
Currently working in a hospital, but not a hospital worker like a doctor or nurse or pharmacist. I wish I could get some domperidone here but it's strictly controlled so I have to find somewhere else

I like nearly every kinds of music, especially rock & dance just to keep me sane.
I play genshin, I was so lucky to get C1 Sandrone. Idk if I'm gonna be around or not when Odette's banner launched in 7.0.
Used to play cities skylines & GTA a lot but the games crashed quite often on my laptop so I stopped playing both.
I like technology and stuff, rooted my phone and flashed custom roms to try on my second phone, dumping windows in favor of linux on my laptop (cachyos), etc.

I like to travel anywhere, like the first time I traveled away from my parents to a random city, went there by plane and back by bus + ferry. Then several attempts later I solo traveled overseas, the latest one being CN (thanks to their 240h visa free transit policy). And my favorite yt videos are all about travel and urbex (rooftopping and train surfing / freight hopping)

Have no irl friends, got heartbroken twice, maybe I wasn't destined for love...

Lately I was prescribed fluoxetine and some random compounded medicine from my shrink.

And that's all from me.
 
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throwawaygirl

throwawaygirl

Member
Dec 23, 2025
20
Im a 30 year old transfemme from the US. I enjoy gaming (My favorite being the dark souls series) and playing electric bass, aswell as reading comics. Im extremely shy/anxious, aswell as autistic which has lead to me not really having any friends. I do want to CTB but it'd be nice to have friends before I decide to.
 
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makotoyuki

makotoyuki

Persona
Aug 2, 2026
20
24M, Argentina.
I love rock; a mix of my favorite bands includes Boa and Blackstones.

I love drinking beverages like whisky, gin, or vermouth.

I'm into anime specifically experimental and psychological titles from the 90s and 2010s.
Perfect Blue, Lain,Paranoia Agent,Ergo Proxy.

I love the Persona 3 and Persona 5 video games.

I'm simply looking for someone to talk to; I'm tired of talking to myself and listening to my own thoughts.

Honestly, I don't know when I'll go through with it; I'm just living day to day out of sheer inertia and emptiness.
 
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amnesia999

amnesia999

Lie, lie, lie - Life is a lie
Jun 30, 2024
265
63yo married male here, lives in the PNW, lonely even if married, have not been getting along with the wife here lately.

Have CPTSD, GAD (general anxiety disorder, which includes a heaping handful of social anxiety), and ADHD. Retired.

Looking for friend(s) I could meet in person. I spend a lot of time stuck in the house dinking on a computer.

Interests include music, plays, books - although I haven't done any of those 3 for a while now.
 
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homunculi

homunculi

i love life, but life has a boyfriend
Jul 28, 2026
21
29 yr old gay guy from the US. i find it hard and embarrassing to describe myself... but i will try.

i'm a big fan of art but especially movies and music. my favorite director is david lynch and my top five movies are The Lighthouse, Gummo, Eraserhead, and Paris is Burning. i am constantly listening to music and right now am focusing more on hardcore and post punk stuff. i draw and edit videos and sometimes fuck around with making my own music but not very often. currently i am conceptualizing an experimental film project related to my thoughts on suicide and death.

sometimes i play video games, too. some favorites are Disco Elysium, Portal, Portal 2, Death Stranding, and Balatro.

i have struggled with Mental Health Issues for over half of my life. i will not list out all of my diagnoses but trust me, the list is long and annoying. the amount of therapists i've had is in the double digits. even though my life is going really badly right now i have no intention to catch any bus at this time and instead am here because i belive in the right to die and complete bodily autonomy. i'm also here to find people who feel similarly. i have friends who love me but i dont think i could talk about any of this stuff without scaring them into thinking i'm going to do something i don't have any intention of doing.
 
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jaxxon_sunn

jaxxon_sunn

Un jour je serai de retour près de toi
May 10, 2023
103
Hi, I am coming back after a period away. You never really leave, or maybe it's just he lucky few who recover. Anyways, I would really love to make friends. Have been struggling with cycles of depression and extreme anhedonia, so I sometimes have no interest in anything, but I still like to interact with my previous interests. They accumulate and build and shape me as a person, so I never let go of them fully. My interests are the less recent anime, BL, classical literature and books in general, the arts like classical music, art history and techniques, facts about the world, discovering new things and learning. I am very interested in learning languages, mainly spanish, japanese and german, though any language I would love to learn at least some things including culture. I'd like to move to Europe if I make it out of here. If you know spanish and would be interested in conversing, through messages or calls about our interests to help me learn, that would be very nice. Oh I am learning ASL also. I am trying to recover on my own from selective mutism. I really would like to improve my communication skills in general to not be struggling so much in everyday life.

Some media that has altered my brain chemistry would be Hannibal, Disco Elysium, IWTV, Saw, Alien stage, Strangers from hell, No. 6, BG3, Good Omens, Hazbin, Omori, Slow damage, DMMD, DOL, The adventure zone, The magnus archives, many more. My ideal friend would watch shows with me, play games, read together and we bond over them. I don't know what else to say, but I will say I prefer in person things as a quiet person and loner, like wandering around the city and attending events, though I would like to make friends around the globe. I like to travel, to get away from my home and America in general. Walking around experiencing things together would be the best, to know I'm not alone in this world. I am in the PNW. Message me and reach out if anything resonates with you :halo:
 
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logen9inefingers

logen9inefingers

body found floating by the docks
Jan 13, 2025
18
Hey, you can call me logen. I'm 21 and would love to talk to another suicidal loser like me. I read alot of fantasy/sci-fi.
I also like cooking dishes from different parts of the world in my free time. I live in south asia but willing to talk to anyone about anything.
Feel free to dm me!
 
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Butterfly-death

Butterfly-death

Death take my hand, I want to dance with you
Apr 5, 2024
98
Hi I'm Aubrey. I live in the US. I'm turning 20 in a couple days. I struggle a lot with depression and anxiety. I have family issues and health issues. I'm LGBTQ. I love chatting with people online :)

My hobbies are reading, writing, cooking, baking, and photography

My favorite music artist is Mitski!

I play games such as animal crossing, stardew valley, tomodachi life, hades, etc I also enjoy visual novels

I'm into fnaf, undertale, omori, adventure time, south park, smiling friends, steven universe, death note, hamilton, epic the musical, heathers, mean girls, scott pilgrim, gravity falls, inside job, bojack horseman, etc

Feel free to message me if you want to talk!
 
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maggineko

maggineko

Holding on 'till May
Aug 10, 2026
89
Hey hi! Call me Nix. I'm pretty sure I'm able to chat now (I think!!) so feel free to PM me~ I'm pretty chatty and love talking to people, and I'm a little eager to make friends! I'm passively suicidal, if that's important to you.

I'm 19 as of writing this and will be 20 in 2027, how the time flies! I'm into Genshin Impact, Honkai Star Rail, Stardew Valley, TheSims, South Park, and a lot of others that aren't coming to me at the moment. I'm also into Yani Neko (Chainsmoker Cat.)

I love rock music but I listen to a little bit of everything. What's going on in my head at the moment is post-hardcore bands like Pierce the Veil, April's Love Affair, Sleeping with Sirens.

Hit me up if you think we'd get along!
 
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SilentVelvet

SilentVelvet

Member
Jan 28, 2026
46
Hey, I'm Jenif, 25, from Germany :)

I'm really into survival video games like Valheim and Minecraft. I love getting to know new people and hearing about what moves them, what they've experienced, and what matters to them in life.

So feel free to message me. I'd love to get to know you!🪿
 
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mmoebread

mmoebread

mm
May 16, 2026
12
hii i go by m !! i'm currently 19 turning 20 this month and i'm also queer

i really like chiikawa … but i'm a larp and haven't read or watched much 😭😭 i also really like bandori, hsr, vnc, pjsk, alnst, and i'm currently into mcyt rn. im also into oshikatsu but i'm lowkey a larp

i also really love to draw but i haven't been able to draw much recently bc of motivation coughs ..

feel free to msg me heh id love to make some new friends
 
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somiseriously

somiseriously

Sol Invictus
Apr 28, 2026
28
Hi, I'm Sol. I did post on this thread before, but the way of contact I mentioned there is now invalid. I'm 19. I suffer from bpd and ocd. Unfortunately, in college rn (I mean, what's the point I won't get a job) I like anime, manga, manhwa, webtoons, movies, gaming(I love rpg maker , raising sims, strategy games, and obviously also the fps and open-world games any game that's good basically, also otome and VN games, ok this list is never going to end)

I write poetry and songs. Currently I can't ctb because of a promise I made so I'll be around unfortunately while struggling with Suicidal ideation

Feel free to message me
 
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failedmind

failedmind

lonely
Oct 31, 2024
226
hii im 25f.
i live on the east coast of the us
i'm pretty introverted but i love nature, coffee, video games, animals, crafting, reading, and music. i like alternative and metal music as well as indie.

it would be really nice to find someone to talk to and become friends with. it's really lonely feeling like this and it would be relieving to talk to someone who relates. id like to say i'm really kind and open. i enjoy having conversations about anything really.

feel free to message me
 
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ultradespair

ultradespair

Shut-in
Jul 25, 2025
52
23 M from Europe
Shut-in for the past 6+ years
Would like to make non-judgemental friends that have similar interests/lives, im accepting of all types of people ^^
My favourite things are: various videogames (deadlock, slay the spire, osrs, factorio etc) Animals (cats!!!) and Music
Im down to play games together aswell once we know eachother.
 
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lemohemo

Member
Apr 7, 2020
26
32f ireland
All I have is my cat and an addiction to my phone.
Play a little ukulele and banjo
Haven't listened to music in a couple of weeks not but usually always have a song in the go. If I start to feel better would like someone to share music with, I listen to all genres.
Bipolar and currently very fatigued with some health issues I'm waiting to have diagnosed. The mental health diagnosis go on and on but we can talk more about that when we talk :)
 
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kosmischerunfall

kosmischerunfall

Student
Jan 7, 2024
199
20f Germany
Hard for me to Tell you things about me because of my depression but i would like to make Friends xd

I think it will be easier to connect with people on here who have the Same thoughts about death as me.

About me:
Im an Introvert, i like videogames (Binding of Isaac, fnaf (and the lore), minecraft and fighting games, Horror Games Like dead space and silent hill
If you have games that you want to try out but have no second im here xD

Music i Like to Listen to includes: Alex g, mitski, tv girl, CaS, Marina, Metric (my Most favourite Band), cavetown, Girl in red

Another hobbies Are: drawing and if i could urban exploring

Okay cya☺️
 
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