Made Up My Mind (September 19th) Is The Day. -Fentanyl-

[darksoul999]

I have made up my mind that the pain and suffering is not worth it anymore.

I have been dealing with Bipolar 2 since the age of 19 & i just can't deal with it.

Right now, i am in a state of Mania, so i have the energy to follow through on it.

Going to visit some family this weekend, they have no clue it will be the last time they see me alive.

I am honestly not scared. I feel impowered actually because i feel in control of my own destiny.

The method will be (Pure Fentanyl) which i tested.

I know somebody on here will say "that method is not reliable" BUT i could say the same about SN.

Its a peaceful method + really the only method i really want to do.

I have SN, but it seems hit and miss and quite uncomfortable.

I actually tried to OD on Fent before but was only saved because i was found 3 mins after taking it.

I will make sure i am alone this time.

Going to get a hotel at the beach, take a walk, then IV it + Snort some if i am still awake.

I hope this works, wish me luck :)

Ill make another post as i get closer to the date.

Thanks for reading.

 

[mekhi]

I guess congrats that you have a plan that works for you. If I may ask, why the 19th? What made you come up with your date?
I have a shotgun and ammo that I can use literally right under my bed :/ I just have trouble with picking a date and setting my mind to it

 

[darksoul999]

That date just feels right to me IDK.

Also, i am still getting some things together, by the 19th ill be ready for sure.

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find the freedom you search for, I wish you the best.

 

[never mind me]

Wow, I am impressed that you can do i.v. injection. I think that makes success a lot more likely. I wanted to learn it once and actually got a friend who is a doctor's assistent to show me, but couldn't replicate it by myself.
I hope everything goes as planned for you.

Just one question, out of curiosity and I hope you don't mind: In my (limited) understanding of mania I thought that while people are manic they feel really good. So I am surprised you are deciding on ctb while you are in a state of mania. Do you still realize how much you suffer otherwise in life despite feeling good right now? Or don't you actually feel good, but just have more energy than normal?

 

[cecil]

Hello, I have a question. How were you able to tell that your fentanyl is pure? And like how do you prepare your fent before administering it thru IV?

 

[Scaredycat]

Hello, I have a question. How were you able to tell that your fentanyl is pure? And like how do you prepare your fent before administering it thru IV?

put some on foil and vaporize. if it vaporizes completely its pretty much pure. remember to wear a gas mask so you dont accidentally inhale the vapor.
Test kits work too