Water-Lily
Enlightened
- Dec 26, 2020
- 1,163
Today, I moticed a burning smell in my dorm
I checked the new air fryer I used and saw that it was off. So I figured it was no big deal
My roomate came home and messaged me about the smell. I addressed her
She asked me if I cleaned out the air fryer before use. I lied and said I rinsed it out
But in actuality I didn't
Why did I lie?
A trauma response
I am used to truthful remarks being met with abuse. So I fear being honest
I feel if I am this bad at honesty, then there's no point wasting time with the guy that's interested in me
I'm clearly not a good person for a relationship
I checked the new air fryer I used and saw that it was off. So I figured it was no big deal
My roomate came home and messaged me about the smell. I addressed her
She asked me if I cleaned out the air fryer before use. I lied and said I rinsed it out
But in actuality I didn't
Why did I lie?
A trauma response
I am used to truthful remarks being met with abuse. So I fear being honest
I feel if I am this bad at honesty, then there's no point wasting time with the guy that's interested in me
I'm clearly not a good person for a relationship