Help LSD gave me death anxiety

[amaterasu :-)]

Since I had some bad experiences with LSD, I don't think about death the same way. I never felt that way before, but as a result of intense panic attacks LSD induced me, I'm now more prone to anxiety in general, I've also had of panic/depersonalization attacks while completely sober (only since my LSD use, never had then before). Although it's been a while (1 year) since I last used drugs, this never seems to go away completely, and am afraid this may ruin my ctb attempt, since my method is SN, and I don't really have any other options. I'm afraid the process will be similar to what I experienced with psychedelics, or that it will induce a panic attack more easily which may ruin all. I remember a long time ago i din't care about death and now with this experience everything is very different, it really piss me off, wish I had known about this posible harms from LSD before using it. In the end it might not be that bad, but there is no way to really know.

 

[EternalAgony]

This is interesting, sorry for what you are going through. I acquired a new strange fear of/uneasiness for death around the time I did LSD, 600 μg. I don't remember if this fear came to me before or after my experience, but if it was after, maybe LSD was the reason this fear appeared in me. I used to not care about my consciousness ending but now I am, a little bit. But living is not an option for me so I'll have to push through.

 

[Droso]

The best advice I can give to you is watching videos/reading stories about people who either had a near death experience or was brought back to life. Once you get a general consensus of how we perceive the process of dying then you can compare it to your experiences on LSD. If they are different, your anxieties will most likely lessen. If they are the similar, then you can either prepare yourself or reevaluate your decision to ctb.

 

[Kta1994]

I'm sorry you had this experience, I myself had a experience with acid that wasn't pleasant but it helped me with death anxiety

 

[amaterasu :-)]

This is interesting, sorry for what you are going through. I acquired a new strange fear of/uneasiness for death around the time I did LSD, 600 μg. I don't remember if this fear came to me before or after my experience, but if it was after, maybe LSD was the reason this fear appeared in me. I used to not care about my consciousness ending but now I am, a little bit. But living is not an option for me so I'll have to push through.

Thanks for sharing your experience
It's more of a generalized anxiety that translates into fear of how I'll react to the process of dying, also existential and uncomfortable thoughts about death itself... but more than anything it's worry about whether I'll be able to carry out the method...I relate the tachycardia of the SN to what I felt on LSD. The panic isn't so bad after a year, but it's in me, Today I had another one unexpectedly. I have taken two benzos (but the minimum amount) because it was getting intense, but usually, I can handle it without medications... usually happens if i use stimulants, so I'm going to quit coffee before sn to minimize risks... I'd like to know if SN creates a feeling similar to being on stimulants, because that's what induces that panic in me... I think that tachycardia alone would not cause me panic (if the sensations of dissociation, depersonalization, etc. did not appear)

The best advice I can give to you is watching videos/reading stories about people who either had a near death experience or was brought back to life. Once you get a general consensus of how we perceive the process of dying then you can compare it to your experiences on LSD. If they are different, your anxieties will most likely lessen. If they are the similar, then you can either prepare yourself or reevaluate your decision to ctb.

In itself, I don't think that
it feels the same,
otherwise the user experiences would reveal it.
Some have said , for what i remember, they felt the tachycardia but were not afraid. or that they did not feel "as if they were going to die."
It doesn't sound at all like what I imagine they would say if it were similar to LSD.
but then again, if we were to assume that it felt for them something like LSD, they died a while later, they might have had no time to give us details.

 

[amaterasu :-)]

the benzos made me feel for some while sure I can pull this off :D
makes me feel carefree about it, so I have a little hope now

 

[Ligottian]

LSD was possibly the catalyst for the mental illness of Brian Wilson. Too bad he is mainly known for the surf and car songs, not that those weren't good. His best, and I mean genius material in my opinion, were album cuts that were never heard. Truly a tragic figure. RIP, Brian.

 

[Worndown]

LSD is not something to play with.
Dosages have too many variables to be safe. It's effects also vary wildly.
It was never a good idea.
I hope you can find a away around these limits it has given you.

 

[amaterasu :-)]

LSD is not something to play with.
Dosages have too many variables to be safe. It's effects also vary wildly.
It was never a good idea.
I hope you can find a away around these limits it has given you.

I will use benzos. I took two this mornimg, although it was for something else. and it made me feel carefree and feel super dtermined about my ctb

 

[cryptoinvestor]

lsd saved me from making a first attempt back in 2017. It was the first time i had ever tried it. But the difference back then from now, is I had a bit of hope. I'm so scared to take it now, I will have a mental beakdown, I'm sure of it. Im so sorry OP, def cut down on stimulants. My first panic attack ever was on caffeine