ohhh, i'm sorry, when I log in through the browser it sometimes automatically translates the text.
No worries, it's just that some meaning is lost through translation and it's harder to reply. : )
of course, a person who has experienced some kind of "turning point" will never be the same, to some extent it helped us become who we were.. anime, games and books! it's wonderful, I just love it, besides the fact that you can find characters with the same pain as you, with the same situations, which helps you somehow navigate, well, or at least you don't feel alone. besides, it's a great distraction and inspiration... I just can't imagine how people live without it! it incredibly broadens your horizons, and I absolutely adore it!
I cried when I lost Thane in Mass Effect 3. I cried again when I thought I almost lost Grunt, and then when he showed up alive I cried again with happiness. That doesn't mean that I didn't incredibly love my other companions as well.
I didn't want to let Alistair die in Dragon Age so I sacrificed myself instead. I would do the same thing if it was real.
I would die for Eder, or for Sagani or for the Grieving Mother (from Pillars of Eternity) as well.
The children of the orphanage in the House in the Cerulean Sea are some of the most beautiful beings ever. The love for simple things that Theodore the wyvern has: "It's like one of Theodore's buttons. If you asked him why he cared about them so, he would tell you it's because they exist at all.", the aspirations of Chauncey (he just wants to be a bellhop), Talia's mordbid jokes: "Are you Mr. Baker? If you are, we've been expecting you. If not, you're trespassing, and you should leave before I bury you here in my garden. No one would ever know because the roots would eat your entrails and bones." She frowned again. "I think. I've never buried anyone before. It would be a learning experience for the both of us.", Sal's innocence.. etc. etc. etc.
The last discussion between Hector and Isaac in Castlevania. And the end, oh how I cried at the end, how I wish I had my Sypha..
I think we like these characters so much because they are real. In the "real" world humans are fakes, they lie, they deceive, they hide who they are but in anime, games, in books.. no. And that's where we learn from, that's where I learned what kind of person I should be.
But to experience these you have to have a certain.. mind. To be open, to imagine, to dream. Normies live without anime, games, without books because their minds have been stripped. We are PCs, they are (like a friend of mine said) NPCs. Maybe sometimes you find companions, if you're really lucky, but most of the times.. no.
I have always had very poor health, I have been diagnosed with asthma, I have an ulcer, heart problems, vitamin deficiency... that's not all, but it's a good list, in short! XD
I'm sorry to hear that girl. I may know how you feel. I had a form of asthma too, vitamin deficiencies as well, knee (joint) problems, my immune system is weak, I am weak and I forget, bloody hell how I forget.. But I fight it, I fight it now and I will fight it until the end. I do sports, I try to eat healthy, I take supplements, I go to saltmines, I keep notes.. I try. I hope you can do it too, one step at a time.
I still don't know what happened to me. I think it was something... like psychological...
As soon as I heard her words that night, I couldn't sleep, I started losing weight quickly, as I said, it was very difficult for me to breathe, I constantly felt sick and fainted as soon as I got up. it was terrible, at about 3 months. then I was able to at least walk, but I constantly needed medication support, that's when my relatives took me to all the doctors, did all the examinations, but it just reminded me of all my diagnoses, nothing new..
and the last doctor said to go to a psychiatrist, but my father was against it, so we probably won't find out the reason, what happened to me then, the shock was too strong, I guess.
It was definitely shock. I experienced it too. She broke up with me while we were travelling, I cried for days while driving until I reached home, and it didn't stop there. She said "Don't worry, it will pass.", but it won't, because it was real. I don't know how to fake it like everyone else.
I'm so sorry for what you went through. I think we meet someone and we build this world with them and maybe we think it's like a videogame where if you make the right choices you will have a good experience and a good ending. And then they brake it, they brake the world and of course we don't know how to react, because it's unexpected. Did we deserve this!? Maybe a little, but mostly not. And that's why we crumble, our whole world crumbles.
