Lots of people on here appear to want to die: Do you have any diagnoses? Physical or psychological, which is making you want to CTB?

[Ednospatient]

Eating disorder and severe depression hah

 

[Chiisai]

Is this for a study/research? If it is, it could be helpful. This could allow enough evidence to know the corellation of mental illness/spectrum/physical disabilities/genetic disorders and the want for euthanasia.

Now to answer your question, I dont really know. Im just tired of life itself and wish I could just reset and make right decisions in the next life if there is one. Although I was just diagnosed recently with thalassemia with complications of hemochromatosis which might explain why I feel fatigued all the time. Its a blood disorder where the body stores too much iron and it becomes toxic to the organs. Well its hereditary so there's no cure to that and the maintenance is costly and tiring but left untreated can coat the organs in iron and cause organ failure over time so, either wait for that to happen which I think is very painful or just CTB. But hey! I get to live as a real-life iron man/woman.

 

[UseItOrLoseIt]

BPD and major depression.
Hypergonadism.

I think the latter plays a substantial role in the former.

 

[yellothere]

When I was a minor I was diagnosed with depression, anxiety, bipolar, and bpd over the years. In adulthood I have had zero psych diagnoses because I refuse to see anyone claiming to be a "professional" in the field. I don't need some moron with a degree to plaster me with their opinions of whats wrong with me. As far as I'm concerned that's all those diagnoses are most of the time, just opinions. I definitely have loads of problems, but I feel no need to be labeled or "helped".

As far as physical stuff I get dry eye so bad that it's painful just to have the affected eye exposed to air or opened at all, and really nothing helps it. It's So I basically just sit with my eyes closed and a patch over the affected eye for days and days unable to really do anything until it eases off. And even when the eye is closed and covered it's still very painful and tears like crazy etc.

I hate dry eyes. My immune system crashed in the summer of 2019 after finishing a semester. I developed sinus issues and dry eye. After too much crying and stress, it got worse. My eyelashes aren't growing in a straight line and my eyelids are always a little inflamed.
It gives me light sensitivity to. If I cry too hard my eyes burn and I struggle to get oil out or make tears for a while. I once had to put in an eye drip every 30 mins because the bus had air conditioning!!!!
It used to be much better until the beginning of 2020.

Is it Aquarius or evaporative ?
(I have both)

I get dry eyes too. It's miserable. Not as bad as yours. But it's hard finding remedies.

Been taking flax seed oil but supposedly takes weeks to kick in.

You have to do hot compresssmof they are telling you it's an oil issue! It sucks. Your oil gets trapped in your eyelids and they die off if you don't melt the oil to empty them :/

 

[Beau]

My gut was damaged by taking a lot of antibiotics years ago, and over time I've developed chronic gastritis, esophagitis, smalll intestinal bacteria overgrowth, ibs. I can barely eat and am severely underweight. I also have burning mouth syndrome.

 

[ratpudding]

Autism, ADHD, Bipolar Disorder, Depression, Anxiety, PTSD, Panic Disorder. I'm currently on disability benefits because I'm not fit to work.
Every day I just feel trapped in my own mind. I have to constantly distract myself so I don't get lost. It's like the most boring nightmare ever. My mental health has snowballed into me living in filth because I can't bring myself to clean, I live in a trailer falling apart because I can't dream of affording someplace better, and my landlord forces me to pay out of pocket to "fix" the problems that never get fixed. The worst trauma in my life is over but it's left me so fucked up I can't even motivate myself to try to make things better anymore because I know they won't be. I'm stuck here, and even if I got out, I'd still be stuck being me.

 

[Cockney_Rebel]

I know this is an old thread so I may be talking to the ether. I am a 37 year old male. I have dry eye to the point that my cornea is literally falling apart Painfully. Up untill 7 months ago I had no idea what true pain was. I do now. I now have severe PTSD and I've been wanting to ctb for a while now (SI is a hell of a thing), anyways just wanted to kinda get this off my chest. I live with my mom since my dad died a few years ago shes 72 and healthy as a horse I wish I got those genes. I am planning on Next week for my ctb I'm going to use SN and she is supportive and understands why Im doing this. Thanks for listening

I just got your reply through.

I'm currently in a pub, getting myself intoxicated, before I take my latest overdose.

You really touched me heart, and I want you to know that.

I have my advanced decision living will with me, with commands no CPR, no life support, no pain relief.

Thus, if I am unable to communicate, they have to abide by these wishes.

I have nothing more to add, other than I love you.

With the substance I have, in the quantity I have, with my advanced decision living will, I'm basically gone.

If I see you on the other side, I'll hug you for as long as it takes for you to be comfortable.

I love you.

 

[goldenvirginia]

I have severe anxiety and BDD. The full scale of symptoms reared up about 4 years ago and despite therapy have got progressively worse.

 

[mentalhealthfighter]

The main reason for my CTB is depression. I'm diagnosed bipolar, PDD-NOS and ADHD.

I have also had psychosis. I was very paranoid and it was the worst hell on earth. I have been on and off antipsychotics

I have chronic depression. I feel numb everyday. I never feel at peace. I'm bedridden. I can't hold a job. I cant be independent. I dont enjoy anything. I dont see the point to living. I just never feel comfortable in my body. When I sleep poorly, the symptoms get even worse. And it seems that every so often my sleep gets really bad. Those days are hell and I'm scared that it will trigger another psychosis.

it's just not looking very bright for me. I think I'm going to work towards getting euthanasia accepted so I atleast have a way out. I will stay alive for my mom as long as I can tolerate.

 

[deflationary]

Every time I see the title of this thread, it makes me chuckle. "Lots of people on here appear to want to die" That's some next level powers of observation :) No offense meant to the OP and maybe it was meant to be funny.

Anyway, I'm not sure if I'm diagnosed with anything. I ate some depression pills when I was younger but I'm not sure I was actually "officially" diagnosed with anything? I don't really believe in psychological diagnoses enough to get one. Obviously I'd qualify for something but it doesn't matter.

 

[aviation]

Diagnoses are, in essence, grouping of observed patterns into a category, which has been made for the sole purpose of said grouping. It's why I've always considered it vaguely amusing, as, in essence, it does not actually say anything, other than, "The pattern of (things) I am perceiving fit within a category created for the grouping of said patterns". If I talk to someone, and I exhibit certain, be it thought/behavioral/speech, patterns within them, that, on that same surface level, resemble things I have previously seen in another person, I can make up a word to describe this pattern, which is helpful if you have a need for categorization, but there is no 'inherent meaning' in this. It would be like seeing a person in front of you that likes to tap their hands on wooden surfaces whenever they encounter them - you could then give this behavior its own name, if you wish, and tell this to the person doing it as a big revelation - but the weight this categorization is given always felt a little amusing to me, due to the lack of 'inherent content'.

I'm not sure what categories would be pushed onto me, if it mattered to me to be assigned any, but I don't really mind, either - I give more weight to what is there, and what I feel, than to whatever categories are being given to these things on a piece of paper in a doctor's office somewhere. :)

 

[catwalk]

diagnosed with autism at a very young age. over before it even began.

 

[mentalhealthfighter]

diagnosed with autism at a very young age. over before it even began.

Autism kills

 

[Deadly_Intention]

I have BPD and MDD and I am pretty much the most evil wretched person you could know. So all of that is a good reason to CTB for me

 

[Ada]

I've been misdiagnosed with schizophrenia and permanently damaged by medication.

 

[O_oreo.]

según la psiquiatría, sufro de depresión severa con síntomas psicóticos y delirios de referencia.
apesta, especialmente cuando estás con mucha gente o cuando estás en la calle.