How do people live with bpd

[bl33ding_heart]

Genuinely how do people live with bpd? The symptoms of my bpd started appearing and taking over my life when I was 12 years old. And since then my life has been exponentially more difficult than the life of a regular person without a cluster b personality disorder. Not that people without personality disorders can't suffer, but their experiences aren't the same as us borderlines at all. Whenever my disorder becomes symptomatic, which has been every fucking day lately. It feels so intense I can physically feel it in my bones. And it's so unbearable. I hate this disorder and I truly could never wish it upon anyone. I'm so desperate for some sort of medication. As it would hopefully help me a lot, and minimise the symptoms of my disorder. But I'm currently unable to be prescribed meds, and I will be unable to obtain them for the next month or so. (Potentially even a very long time, it just depends on my ability to make a convincing argument to my psychiatrist). It may not sound long at all. And in all honesty it really isn't. But when that month is spent suffering from the unbearable pains of bpd, it feels tremendously and unbearably longer than just a month. If you also suffer from bpd, feel free to message me. And please give me any advice on how to cope with my disorder and terrible mental state for the time being, if you have any. Thank you for reading, and I hope you have a good day/night wherever in the world you are.

 

[purebliss]

Genuinely how do people live with bpd? The symptoms of my bpd started appearing and taking over my life when I was 12 years old. And since then my life has been exponentially more difficult than the life of a regular person without a cluster b personality disorder. Not that people without personality disorders can't suffer, but their experiences aren't the same as us borderlines at all. Whenever my disorder becomes symptomatic, which has been every fucking day lately. It feels so intense I can physically feel it in my bones. And it's so unbearable. I hate this disorder and I truly could never wish it upon anyone. I'm so desperate for some sort of medication. As it would hopefully help me a lot, and minimise the symptoms of my disorder. But I'm currently unable to be prescribed meds, and I will be unable to obtain them for the next month or so. (Potentially even a very long time, it just depends on my ability to make a convincing argument to my psychiatrist). It may not sound long at all. And in all honesty it really isn't. But when that month is spent suffering from the unbearable pains of bpd, it feels tremendously and unbearably longer than just a month. If you also suffer from bpd, feel free to message me. And please give me any advice on how to cope with my disorder and terrible mental state for the time being, if you have any. Thank you for reading, and I hope you have a good day/night wherever in the world you are.

I don't
Which is why I am on this forum ^^
Every low is like hell on earth for me
And every high is so intense mixed with the knowledge that something will come to crash it down again. So I can't even enjoy the highs

As my hedonistic normal is already extremely low crashing down from such an intense high is like being thrown in the deepest pits of hell again.
You get used to your low eventually, if you stay in it long enough. You just wake up every morning contemplating for 30 Minutes if it is easier today to just die or live like this. But you get at least used to it.

The fun begins when you then get ripped out of your low and then get thrown right back into it.

It is hell. So much hell
And I can't wait for this all to be over soon ^^

 

[mikidagreen]

Genuinely how do people live with bpd? The symptoms of my bpd started appearing and taking over my life when I was 12 years old. And since then my life has been exponentially more difficult than the life of a regular person without a cluster b personality disorder. Not that people without personality disorders can't suffer, but their experiences aren't the same as us borderlines at all. Whenever my disorder becomes symptomatic, which has been every fucking day lately. It feels so intense I can physically feel it in my bones. And it's so unbearable. I hate this disorder and I truly could never wish it upon anyone. I'm so desperate for some sort of medication. As it would hopefully help me a lot, and minimise the symptoms of my disorder. But I'm currently unable to be prescribed meds, and I will be unable to obtain them for the next month or so. (Potentially even a very long time, it just depends on my ability to make a convincing argument to my psychiatrist). It may not sound long at all. And in all honesty it really isn't. But when that month is spent suffering from the unbearable pains of bpd, it feels tremendously and unbearably longer than just a month. If you also suffer from bpd, feel free to message me. And please give me any advice on how to cope with my disorder and terrible mental state for the time being, if you have any. Thank you for reading, and I hope you have a good day/night wherever in the world you are.

feel this in my soul as i read it. have been unable to get mine for over a year now and sometimes i just feel so mean and hateful even though i dont want to be it makes me hate myself even more after my emotions clear up. i wish i could offer you advice but living like this is just not something that feels feasible and everyday my shitty emotions and depression just get worse. ive been thinking of jumping off my balcony if i cant get my meds in the next month (moved to europe from south usa so hoping for better results) i truly wish the best for you as you deal with the hellstorm of this fuck ass brain rotting ass illness. (also idk if this is advice but having just enough alcohol to barely be drunk helps me feel dumbed down so thats an improvement lmao)