Losing my Patience

[NumbForLife]

I feel like I want to give myself until a certain day to find a partner to exit with. Otherwise I might never find someone. And if I don't find someone by then I should make an attempt.

I can't deal with this numbness anymore. Maybe when I'm dying I'll finally feel something for fucks sake. I wish it were easier to hire someone like a hit man to help me CO though. Life is so cruel.

 

[vascomorrow]

I feel like I want to give myself until a certain day to find a partner to exit with. Otherwise I might never find someone. And if I don't find someone by then I should make an attempt.

I can't deal with this numbness anymore. Maybe when I'm dying I'll finally feel something for fucks sake. I wish it were easier to hire someone like a hit man to help me CO though. Life is so cruel.

Why do you want a partner? Sorry if its a bad question..

 

[NumbForLife]

Why do you want a partner? Sorry if its a bad question..

It's not a bad question at all. I just somehow feel very hesitant in going out alone, so I posted on the Partner Megathread to see if anyone in my area ever messages me.

Hiring someone in the underworld who could help me CO out of here in a car would be my first choice though. I'm definitely worried about screwing up so I'm still studying the method.